i find myself packing for my last pc camp. and weirdly nostalgic.


i guess its kind of late for me to realize that these next 2 months will be a last of a lot of things. last pc camp, last parliament meetings, last 2 bio tests.... last day 1's, last day 2's, last days as a celtic.
as my university decision looms in the very near future, i am both excited, sad, and scared for my life. my whole life, my parents would always say, "When you're in university" or "save that money for university" and it's so hard to believe that i'm almost there. hard to believe i'm 18 years old.......... i have the same amount of energy (actually probably more) than when i walked into this school 5 years ago.


shit

the final stretch

summer is such a tease

so close i can taste it.

inspired.

can't help but keep thinking about my adventures in mexico. yadda yadda its already over etc etc..... but at the end of the day, does it really matter? these people are still there. i'm still here. these people are so happy, so gracious, and then you come here and its a totally different world.
i was talking to a university the other day, and they were asking me questions re:a scholarship. when they asked me if there was anything else i wanted to say, and i realized i wanted to tell them about my adventure. about the people i met, the places i've been do, and my immense desire to help. make a difference.

but yeah. oh my gosh.... if this astronaut thing doesn't work out, i'm going to be doing something where i can help people and make them happy. and that, is that.

mmhmmm

first to admit i was weary about going on this trip, but sosososososo happy i went. honestly, one of the best trips i've ever been on, never have i laughed so hard. Though Mexico is nothing new to me the people and places never seem to amaze me. The work we did there meant more to me than laying on a beach or by a pool, and the things i learned are priceless.
Number one? be happy. We see so many people with literally nothing.... we stepped into their homes that had no doors and housed probably about 20 people, and yet they're so quick to offer us a place in their house if we wanted to stay for a couple days. They remain so gracious to be alive, making me even more thankful to be alive. God is love.

interesting

i've taken a new liking to internet shopping. haven't bought anything yet.... but i like to look at pictures of things are pretend what my life would be like if i owned them. my internet shopping has just gotten LOADS easier because i am learning to take advantage of the parcel service in the states (about 15 mins from my house) that will save me shitloads of $$$ in the long run, on shipping and paying canadian $ haha!

i've already got a pretty swim suit for my summers outside doing laps + teaching lessons lined up, and some acessories will soon be in order.

oh geez. here we go.

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i sit here tired, worn out, lost of inspiration. they're working us youngins too hard. i sit here and wonder if university is going to get harder than this. my god! i hope not. but then again, i guess that we can't stop anything we can't handle right?

so i'm embarking on a mexican adventure next week and i'm pretty stoked to see what goes down. though there is a spiritual aspect to it i'm more excited to go garden and play with little mexican children!! and hopefully get a tan haha! oh gee.

but yeah i've been SUPER cranky lately and i've gotta work on it. also, i really want to go shopping.... tsktsktsk erika you should be saving that money for university.


wow this is the longest blog i posted in a LONG time. sad lyfe

time to go bust my ass at the gym, later days

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A Daughter is telling her mother how everything is going wrong, she's failing math, her boyfriend broke up with her and her best friend is moving away. Meanwhile, her mother was making a cake and asked her daughter if she would like a snack, and the daughter says, "Absolutley mom, I love your cakes!"

"Here, have some cooking oil," her mother offers. "Yuck!!" says her daughter.

"How about a couple raw eggs?" "Gross, Mom!"

"How about some flour then? Or maybe baking soda?" "Mom, those are all yucky!"

To which the mother replies, "Yes, those things may seem bad all by themselves, but when they are all put together in the right way, they make something wonderful!"

God works the same way. Many times we wonder why He would let us go through such bad and difficult times. But God knows that when he puts these things all in his order, they always work for good! We just have to trust Him, and eventually, they will all make something wonderful!

God is crazy about you. He sends you flowers every spring, and a sunrise every morning.

Whenever you want to talk, He will listen. He could have lived anywhere in the world, but he chose your heart.

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i guess you could say i have writers' block.

back when i have inspiration.

xxxiv

late post but whatever. best experience of my life.............for reals.