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so sick of my life.

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sometimes i just want to pack up and leave all of this behind. i want to journey to egypt or london or paris or madrid, anywhere that can offer me a difference out of the routine. though i follow my mom's rule of travel (always try somewhere new) i would not mind revisiting chicago or florida or nyc. 2 summers ago, my mom and i ventured to new york city and i can say with all sincerity that it was the best trip of my life (with florida coming in at a close second). i especially loved central park and the museums - the museum of natural history and MOMA were my favourites. i loved the small cafe we went to in harlem, heck i even loved the church service my mom made me go to (so inspiring..... people so passionate about their faith. opening hymn was like 20 min long.... i wish i grew up in that). new york was just a city full of opportunity, a city of lights, of sounds, of smells...... and i wish i was part of it.

i've been thinking a lot about material things lately and i have decided that they no longer satisfy me. when i get back from school next year (yes i've decided on queen's unless some other wild opportunity comes up) i'm going to save all my money to 1)pay off my inevitably immense student loan and 2)travel the world. vancouver's amazing, but i need to experience the world before i can truly appreciate my home.

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happy valentines day! i have the most sweeetest boyfriend ever that spoils me to bits................... making my first real valentines day sosososo special. surprised me with black shatter AND katy perry collection yesterday.... and so many wonderful treats today. glad he enjoyed my baking!!!!!

then came home to my belated bday present from my cousin!! soo00ooo bomb.

happy girl. :):):)

now to clean ma room

finally something to blog about

on my way to kickboxing, i had to drop off dinner for schmucks at the blockbuster. nevermind that it was 2 days overdue.... i was hurrying to kickboxing class. i tore into a parking spot and killed the engine but left my car in drive. as i went to the quik drop, i hear a car horn honking.
I turn around to see my car, door open, driving away BY ITSELF!!! i had to run to race and jump in and thankfully i stepped on the brakes.

Why does my mom ever let me use her car, again?

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i'm a weird girl. some things just don't phase me.... often the big things. strange how i can control myself sometimes when i see the important stuff slipping out of my grip, yet have a spaz when i lose my gym pass or wake up 10 minutes late and almost miss my bus. how does that work?

i guess my goal for the week is to control myself. control my complaining, control my anger, control my lashing out, control my tiredness. control my hunger, control my work ethic... heck why am i even writing in this blog now? i should be applying for a scholarship or doing my lit or doing my grad trans or taking a bath or sleeping.

but then i step back and see lifes pretty good.... works good schools good (mostly) friends good boyfriends good. so why am i even complaining?

and then it begins.


friend gave me a journal for my birthday. going to start writing. i need to get these emotions out in a place where i can feel it and see it. I'm going to write in it and not read it until the journal is full.

until next time.

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as of late........ exhaustion. Never worked so hard in my life, the last week has been HELL. Honestly when I join the real workforce in 6-8 years or w.e I don't know what I'm going to do on the weekends...... or any day after work for that matter haha!
Today, I woke up at 7, gym, work, home, nap, work. just starting homework now. I'm confident that I'm going to die. Kill me now, please.

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i guess blogging will hav to wait/

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lost my will to blog. too tired. to much homework. sorry writing corner of my brain, you're on hiatus for now.