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i'm a weird girl. some things just don't phase me.... often the big things. strange how i can control myself sometimes when i see the important stuff slipping out of my grip, yet have a spaz when i lose my gym pass or wake up 10 minutes late and almost miss my bus. how does that work?

i guess my goal for the week is to control myself. control my complaining, control my anger, control my lashing out, control my tiredness. control my hunger, control my work ethic... heck why am i even writing in this blog now? i should be applying for a scholarship or doing my lit or doing my grad trans or taking a bath or sleeping.

but then i step back and see lifes pretty good.... works good schools good (mostly) friends good boyfriends good. so why am i even complaining?

and then it begins.


friend gave me a journal for my birthday. going to start writing. i need to get these emotions out in a place where i can feel it and see it. I'm going to write in it and not read it until the journal is full.

until next time.