agh

my life = study all day every day. can't wait for thursday at 1030 am.

procrastinating

so much to do.... just got home (kinda) from a 9-4 day at the office {a.k.a. the pool} and i've still got much to do. i have to study for bio and chem and lit and math and french and apply for scholarships and universities and clean my room and paint my nails and figure out christmas gifts and go to the gym and fold my laundry and talk to my boyfriend and talk to my friends and ghkakljgiapojgp agas;kjgeiolrjnmf k;jasfoeriaksf;kljdaskldkmls..................................................

i guess you could say that i was at that point where i was like "i don't give a damn" but i guess some stuff happened and it made me realize that i really do give a damn. in fact i give 3 or 4 damns if i really think about it. i give so many damns that i could house like 100000000 beavers or something in there.

anyways all that damn giving has made me really tired.


and now back to the books.....

exams

study mode for the next week and a bit. it's make it or break it.

GOOD day

best day i've had in weeks. ironically a monday.

1. actually ready for school on time
2. interesting bio class
3. on top of the ball for chem
4. didnt die in lit
5. finished my english essay with time to spare!!!!
6. found out bunch of stuff that made me happy/relieved
7. i have the best boyfriend ever :$
8. it smells like snow
9. kickboxing tonight
10. i actually have FREE TIME
11. sent off my first major entrance awards application to Queen's!! applied to the school on the weekend. $210 later....... sorry mom. HAY its an investment

i love life. now to stress about exams

physically, mentally, and emotionally exausted.
im so tired.

:)

soooooooooooooo content. i owe you the world ♥

breathe

after 2 months of non-stop suddenly turning into a week of nothing, i need to breathe.

hope, love & serenity.... one day at a time.

from now til christmas, its go. wish me luck, i need it.

and to match my mood:

sick as a dog

so i'm past my breaking point. attempted to tough it out and try to go to school today AGAIN..... which failed................ and ended up getting sent home for the weekend. so that's right, no school/life for me till monday!!! woopee!!!

i've never missed so much school in my life. 5 consecutive days of school after this is all over if you count last friday minus the two blocks i attended on monday.

peace to me!!!!
whoever said grade12 was easy is saying complete BS!!!! grade 12 is the hardest mfing thing i've ever had to attempt in ma whole life!! holy crap!!!!

btw. in my sickness emily posted this web site on her wall and i saw it:

damnyouautocorrect.com

funniest website ever. trust me, it will change your life.

things we forget # 603

got my break. how inconvenient.

stuff no one told me (but i learned anyway)

meanwhile at my house

this is going to be a complaining blog. just to warn you.

i woke up at 7:30 am today. went to work. taught swimming to rambunctious children for 3 hours. swam for an hour. lifeguarded for rambunctious people for 2 hours. walked home. started my homework.
8 hours after getting home with little/no breaks .....
still working.

and i am sick.

I LOVE LIFE

note the sarcastic underline.

the beginning

and with a rather spooky ending, november begins. i'll be first to admit that this is always the month that flys by. every year, i can never really remember what happens in november. well except for last year HAHAHA.

can't help but notice that with the changing seasons and leaves and et cetera comes a lot of changes. a lot a lot. soon i'm gonna have to buckle down and start actually filling out university applications. (my entrance scholarship application form for Queen's is sitting in a folder on my desktop as we speak).

yet november also brings me a LOT to look forward to. 4,15,20. hells yeah


now to write my essay on castaway (cannot STAND the ending btw)

spooky

fabulous weekend. happy halloween everyone:)

stuff no one told me (but i learned anyway)

“But who prays for Satan? Who, in eighteen centuries, has had the common humanity to pray for the one sinner that needed it most?”

- mark twain

another metaphor to life.

i've come to terms with the fact that life is a giant puzzle. you're probably like....... yea stupid, obviously. its not like its one of those paint by numbers where all ya need is a the right paint to make a beautiful (numbered picture). it's not like one of those 3d puzzles..... you know rubix cubes and the like. the kind of puzzle i'm talking about here is 2d, where every piece has a place.

I think everyone's life is a puzzle. I mean, at the end of the day, some people's pieces may be smaller than others, and of course, each picture will be different, some more beautiful then others. But of course, everyone has a common goal - to complete it a-sap.

there's your core corner pieces - you know, the easiest ones to put together, the ones that obviously fit together. this is your life foundation. the bonds between the pieces may be weak at times, but they strengthen and weaken at their own pace. It's pretty hard to complete the rest of the puzzle without the outside border.

then there's your inside pieces - pretty much representing every other aspect of your life.
there's the pieces you're SO DAMN sure are a crucial part of the puzzle that end up being tricks; that don't even belong in the puzzle at all. some people spend their whole life trying to make these pieces fit, but they never fully will.
Then there's the pieces that you put in the puzzle and fit perfectly, and then your cat eats them or they get stuck to something, never to be found again. These are the saddest puzzle pieces because most often then not, these kinds of pieces can never be replaced...
there's the pieces that you put in thinking they're in the right spot, but really are not. you think that putting them a certain way will make a picture of a flower field, but one day, or over time, you realize that the picture your puzzle is trying to make isn't of a flower field of all, but actually a space ship. So they need to be rearranged.
there's the pieces that you KNOW need to be there, but can't seem to find anywhere. When you finally find it, you're so happy. everyone is looking for this piece.

puzzle pieces come and go, get rearranged, and change the bigger picture often in ways we can't imagine. though we've got to be careful to hold on to the puzzle pieces that are a great fit and contribute to making the puzzle whole, we've also got to remember that we can't stress over the pieces we haven't found yet.
we've got to simply keep searching - these missing pieces could be anywhere. under the couch, in the bathtub, still in the box, or accidentally in someone else's puzzle, just waiting for you to even be aware of its existence. all you can really do is keep searching, wish, and hope.

life is either a daring adventure or nothing

"do one thing a day that scares you" haaay its paying off

the future awaits

lately i've just been having the don't give a damn attitude. it's kinda freeing to know that after june 2011, i'm on my own. making choices for myself. don't really know what to expect just yet, but i DO know that from then on, i'll control my own destiny.

the possibilities are endless. me and jess had an interesting conversation about schools today...... so far i'm forsure applying to queens, mcgill & st. fx.... possibly u of t and dalhousie.

and to be quite honest, though sometimes the last thing i want to do is leave, and some things i never want to leave, 90% of the time i cannot wait to get out of here.

lets get down to business

stuck in my head ALL day. LOVE IT

http://www.43things.com/person/eeerika

my bucket list.