the obligatory new years post.

1. Be the person I want to be. Say what I mean. Mean what I say. Be someone who I can look up to, and who I can respect.
2. Discover and explore new hobbies, develop the ones I am beginning to take to.
3. Do something that benefits society or the world.
4. Do one thing a day that scares me. i HAVE been doing this
5. Try something I normally wouldn't try and like it.
6. Leave the country
7. Go to the dentist and be able to say that I DO floss regularily.
8. Exercise even more, Eat less.
9. Sleep under the stars.
10. Watch a sunrise.
11. Meet someone who will change my life.
12. Learn something new about myself.
13. Sit at home all day doing nothing.
14. Meet great people.
15. Find out who my true friends are.
16. Go to the beach with my best friend.
17. See a celebrity.
18. Paint a picture.
19. Write a poem.
20. Write a book.....hhahaha fail.....
21. Run a mile.
22. Get my N.
23. Go to a concert.oh well. theres always next yeaaar!
24. Go to a scary movie.
25. Have a really long phone call
26. Have a really short phone call.
27. Play an april fools joke on someone.
28. Celebrate Star Wars Day. (LOL)
29. Have a memorable summer.
30. Do something I am proud of.
31. Be involved in something I'll never forget.
32. Throw a surprise party.
33. Be on TV

i'm extremely proud of what i have accomplished in the past year. however, there is so much more to go. i can already tell you that i have so much to look forward to in the upcoming year:

january: my birthday

february: encounter

march: guadalahajra

april:sunrun

may: final swim season, 365, grad, university acceptance???

june: final swim season, summer, last provincial exams ever!!!!

july: final swim season, summer, vacation

august: move into res @ new school, summer vacation

september: first month of university

october: thanksgiving weekend to explore my university town

november: we have yet to establish

december: coming home to everyone for christmas :)

anyways, though i did recieve a lot good things in 2010 and i am extremely thankful for them, i also know that i worked my ass off for everything that i recieved. soooo resolutions for next year???

- keep working hard.

- forgive easier

- walk slower

- enjoy every moment

happy new year everyone. my wish for everyone is that your 2011 will be as amazing as my 2010.

time flies!!

im home from my trip!! long time no blog. so much to do, so little time.
working ALOT, worked today, currently in the middle of applying to universities, omg still have to do scholarship applications, omg omg wowee wowee........... Found old videos that my friends sylvia elyse and i made when we were in grade 8. made me extremely nostalgic.
okay well thats all for now. till next time

merry christmas!!!

by the way i'm wearing that smile you gave me

mmm mm

mmmm mm candy canes gingerbread houses and wrapping presents and hot chocolate and cloudy with a chance of flurries mmmm mmmm mm christmas

so excited. parliament is putting on the talent show this friday and i'm super happy + grateful i got to be involved in this. im REALLY looking forward tothis, its gonna be bomb. its at the point where i don't even care if the student body likes what we've done, but i'm so proud of us - of how far we've come and of what we've been able to manufacture.

and i've said this before and i'll say it again, I AM SO EXCITED TO GIVE MY CHRISTMAS PRESENTS!!!!! eeeEEEeeeeEEeeeee cant wait to see everyone's happy faces. even if my remaining spending money amount is now in the single digits.

christmas is near

i've got to say, i had a LOT of fun shopping for my christmas presents this year. i can't wait for my friends and fam to open their gifts under their trees (or when i give it to them) this year, cause i REALLY put a lot of thought and effort into all my gifts :) :$
i dont even want anything for christmas this year!!!!! having fun is enough. sleeping enough, time to myself is enough. the gift im giving to myself is a day at home doing absolutely nothing. just me and my 7 literary novels im supposed to read for AP lit club loool..... peace to me.

happy holidays!!! all we need now is snow (though i can't complain about the mild weather :))

worr(fr)ee

i am first to say that i am a worrywart. not about super irrational things, per se, like my house burning down or the canada line train i am on getting bombed or "the big one" earthquake that's supposed to happen here anytime between now and the next 190 years.
i worry more about things in my life. i worry about failure.

i don't get usual nightmares. people i know get them about paranormal activity and bank robbers and voldemort...... but i wake up in a cold sweat to the dorkiest things ever. time and time again i've woken up with a sigh of relief because i realised i actually did NOT miss a shift of work in real life (irresponsibly of course) or that i DID complete the giant project due today on time.

i guess my worry of these silly things began when i adopted a new mantra in grade 9 - "expect the worst, hope for the best". the idea was that if we expected the worst, we would never be dissapointed. it went well and all, but as the days of yore passed me by, i began to realize how UNHAPPY this mantra made me. instead of having any hope for the future whatsoever, i instead became crabby and attempted to stop relying on people because i KNEW they were going to let me down.

and then i realized: why am i making myself so unhappy?!?! worry or not, the outcome will still be the same. so i can spend that time worrying about my cookies burning making another batch, instead of twiddling my thumbs and checking them every two minutes, even though the oven is on timer.

so my new pledge is to create a plan b then remain hopeful. that way, i don't have to gain gray hairs while i'm waiting for something to happen. never a bad thing.

christmas is in 20 days

havent even thought about shopping yet. eep

as of late

exams are finally over!! though i've finished all that stuff till monday, there is still so much to be done... SLEEP the major priority. I guess i'm one of those girls who needs her sleep....... and without it i turn into a zombie-monster cross.
i think it's work that's killing me though, even though i can sleep in till 8 on both saturday and sunday, its not noon like i used to. my late night phone conversations aren't exactly helping my sleeping patterns either........ nights where i do finish my homework i find myself just talking on the phone longer rather than sleeping.

"sleep is for the weak"

call me weak.


on the bright side, FINALLY got my $15 sephora beauty insider gift card in my email!!! been browsing the site ALLLLL day to see what i'm gonna buy :):):) so00o exciting seeing as i won't be spending money on myself (besides necessary coffees and green tea) until january 1st.

tgif, enjoy your weekend everyone!

agh

my life = study all day every day. can't wait for thursday at 1030 am.

procrastinating

so much to do.... just got home (kinda) from a 9-4 day at the office {a.k.a. the pool} and i've still got much to do. i have to study for bio and chem and lit and math and french and apply for scholarships and universities and clean my room and paint my nails and figure out christmas gifts and go to the gym and fold my laundry and talk to my boyfriend and talk to my friends and ghkakljgiapojgp agas;kjgeiolrjnmf k;jasfoeriaksf;kljdaskldkmls..................................................

i guess you could say that i was at that point where i was like "i don't give a damn" but i guess some stuff happened and it made me realize that i really do give a damn. in fact i give 3 or 4 damns if i really think about it. i give so many damns that i could house like 100000000 beavers or something in there.

anyways all that damn giving has made me really tired.


and now back to the books.....

exams

study mode for the next week and a bit. it's make it or break it.

GOOD day

best day i've had in weeks. ironically a monday.

1. actually ready for school on time
2. interesting bio class
3. on top of the ball for chem
4. didnt die in lit
5. finished my english essay with time to spare!!!!
6. found out bunch of stuff that made me happy/relieved
7. i have the best boyfriend ever :$
8. it smells like snow
9. kickboxing tonight
10. i actually have FREE TIME
11. sent off my first major entrance awards application to Queen's!! applied to the school on the weekend. $210 later....... sorry mom. HAY its an investment

i love life. now to stress about exams

physically, mentally, and emotionally exausted.
im so tired.

:)

soooooooooooooo content. i owe you the world ♥

breathe

after 2 months of non-stop suddenly turning into a week of nothing, i need to breathe.

hope, love & serenity.... one day at a time.

from now til christmas, its go. wish me luck, i need it.

and to match my mood:

sick as a dog

so i'm past my breaking point. attempted to tough it out and try to go to school today AGAIN..... which failed................ and ended up getting sent home for the weekend. so that's right, no school/life for me till monday!!! woopee!!!

i've never missed so much school in my life. 5 consecutive days of school after this is all over if you count last friday minus the two blocks i attended on monday.

peace to me!!!!
whoever said grade12 was easy is saying complete BS!!!! grade 12 is the hardest mfing thing i've ever had to attempt in ma whole life!! holy crap!!!!

btw. in my sickness emily posted this web site on her wall and i saw it:

damnyouautocorrect.com

funniest website ever. trust me, it will change your life.

things we forget # 603

got my break. how inconvenient.

stuff no one told me (but i learned anyway)

meanwhile at my house

this is going to be a complaining blog. just to warn you.

i woke up at 7:30 am today. went to work. taught swimming to rambunctious children for 3 hours. swam for an hour. lifeguarded for rambunctious people for 2 hours. walked home. started my homework.
8 hours after getting home with little/no breaks .....
still working.

and i am sick.

I LOVE LIFE

note the sarcastic underline.