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so sick of my life.

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sometimes i just want to pack up and leave all of this behind. i want to journey to egypt or london or paris or madrid, anywhere that can offer me a difference out of the routine. though i follow my mom's rule of travel (always try somewhere new) i would not mind revisiting chicago or florida or nyc. 2 summers ago, my mom and i ventured to new york city and i can say with all sincerity that it was the best trip of my life (with florida coming in at a close second). i especially loved central park and the museums - the museum of natural history and MOMA were my favourites. i loved the small cafe we went to in harlem, heck i even loved the church service my mom made me go to (so inspiring..... people so passionate about their faith. opening hymn was like 20 min long.... i wish i grew up in that). new york was just a city full of opportunity, a city of lights, of sounds, of smells...... and i wish i was part of it.

i've been thinking a lot about material things lately and i have decided that they no longer satisfy me. when i get back from school next year (yes i've decided on queen's unless some other wild opportunity comes up) i'm going to save all my money to 1)pay off my inevitably immense student loan and 2)travel the world. vancouver's amazing, but i need to experience the world before i can truly appreciate my home.

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happy valentines day! i have the most sweeetest boyfriend ever that spoils me to bits................... making my first real valentines day sosososo special. surprised me with black shatter AND katy perry collection yesterday.... and so many wonderful treats today. glad he enjoyed my baking!!!!!

then came home to my belated bday present from my cousin!! soo00ooo bomb.

happy girl. :):):)

now to clean ma room

finally something to blog about

on my way to kickboxing, i had to drop off dinner for schmucks at the blockbuster. nevermind that it was 2 days overdue.... i was hurrying to kickboxing class. i tore into a parking spot and killed the engine but left my car in drive. as i went to the quik drop, i hear a car horn honking.
I turn around to see my car, door open, driving away BY ITSELF!!! i had to run to race and jump in and thankfully i stepped on the brakes.

Why does my mom ever let me use her car, again?

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i'm a weird girl. some things just don't phase me.... often the big things. strange how i can control myself sometimes when i see the important stuff slipping out of my grip, yet have a spaz when i lose my gym pass or wake up 10 minutes late and almost miss my bus. how does that work?

i guess my goal for the week is to control myself. control my complaining, control my anger, control my lashing out, control my tiredness. control my hunger, control my work ethic... heck why am i even writing in this blog now? i should be applying for a scholarship or doing my lit or doing my grad trans or taking a bath or sleeping.

but then i step back and see lifes pretty good.... works good schools good (mostly) friends good boyfriends good. so why am i even complaining?

and then it begins.


friend gave me a journal for my birthday. going to start writing. i need to get these emotions out in a place where i can feel it and see it. I'm going to write in it and not read it until the journal is full.

until next time.

5.

as of late........ exhaustion. Never worked so hard in my life, the last week has been HELL. Honestly when I join the real workforce in 6-8 years or w.e I don't know what I'm going to do on the weekends...... or any day after work for that matter haha!
Today, I woke up at 7, gym, work, home, nap, work. just starting homework now. I'm confident that I'm going to die. Kill me now, please.

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i guess blogging will hav to wait/

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lost my will to blog. too tired. to much homework. sorry writing corner of my brain, you're on hiatus for now.

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eighteen years old and never felt so loved in my life. my friends are the best. thank you for the wonderful suprise and presents, they really mean a lot. oh and i love my boyfriend and bestfriend for thinking up the whole crazy plan. soooo good ♥ a million thankyous!

good changes

i used to figure skate. used to, as in since i was in grade 1 and quit last year. anyways, last year i realized i didn't love it anymore (and i was tired of my ass being soaked and bruised all the time) so i quit. and decided to take up kickboxing instead.

OMG best decision of ma lifeee!!!!!! started in sept and its just starting up after xmas.... best workout of ma life. instructors chill n have sooo much fun. maybe yoga next? loool

honestly

i wish we could just fast forward to summer already.

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another weekend come and gone. zip zip zip

love........

time and time again i try not to be a materialistic person. but makeup ALWAYS gets me. guess its the feeling of possiblity when you enter sephora/drugstore/department store and it's like......... i could get any shade of anything i want in here. and then that feeling when you walk out of the store with a shiny bag and a little treat for yourself in there.... oh ma gad!!! best feeling ever.

anyways, on my latest expedition i quested to find foundation. i've decided that i splurge on face makeup and save on eye makeup (but only mascara and eyeliner)... long story. anyways i decided it was time when a) realized ive been using my (kind of unsatisfactory) smashbox concealer as foundation for the past million years, AND it was almost done!!! oh and b) had like $90 in gift cards to sephora.
so $50 later i ended up with...


make up for ever hd foundation

and i LOVE it!!!!! goes on silky smooth and stays on allllll day and the lady helped me get the right shade! yayyayyay!!!

anyways now time to do my english and lit homework then watch friends and maybe take a nap before kickboxing!!!!! only 10 friends episodes away from crossing off "watch every episode of friends" on my 43things list! HOORAY

seeyalater

tgit

thank god its thursday. meaning that its a night i can actually relax after heading to the gym. dont have to do any more homework till sunday night. heading to the states tomorrow night. work then fondue with ma grrl on sat. and sunday? who knows =).... all i do know is that my weekend will end on monday with qoola the most fav thing in the whole wide world!!! my weekends are flying by. before i know it i'm gonna be 18........ goddamn i'm old.

i must say that in the busyness that is my senior year, i have yet to expand my artistic skills. my oil paints and an unused canvas are sitting in my room, waiting for time and inspiration. goshhhhhh i guess i really can't focus with all the scholarship applications looming in the background!!!

on a FINAL note, finalized my university applications! done and done! UBC, St.FX, and Queen's. I wanted to apply to McGill as well, but honestly i don't see myself going there first year anymore. plus its crazy expensive, and i used the money on that application fee to apply for res at ubc instead hehehh:):):)

anyways thats all for now! see ya on the other side of this weekend.

:)

found this photo from christmas break. thanks for everything :)

as of late

i have been finding myself disgusted with school. its only january 6. come on.

btdubs, merry ukranian christmas!!!

just like january

currently: home from a successful day of shopping, full from crepes my dad made that i found in my fridge, and cleaning out my room for the last half of the school year.

winter break went by quick, as usual. i wouldn't exactly say it was a rest but it was a break from school, which was allright. ugh my work hours are killer this set, 830-4 saturdays and 9-1 sundays.

the next 3 months are going to fly by. at the end of it i'll be supposedly 'changed' hopefully tanned and another year older. and hopefully owning a credit card!!! is it true you can have one at 18? oh and exhausted as usual.

applying for universities lately has made me EXTREMELY anxious about next year. still so much to figure out and i really don't know whats going to go down. i guess we'll have to wait and find out. all i know is that i kinda wanna expand my horizons.

ok ok thats the end of my rambling for now. til next time.

the obligatory new years post.

1. Be the person I want to be. Say what I mean. Mean what I say. Be someone who I can look up to, and who I can respect.
2. Discover and explore new hobbies, develop the ones I am beginning to take to.
3. Do something that benefits society or the world.
4. Do one thing a day that scares me. i HAVE been doing this
5. Try something I normally wouldn't try and like it.
6. Leave the country
7. Go to the dentist and be able to say that I DO floss regularily.
8. Exercise even more, Eat less.
9. Sleep under the stars.
10. Watch a sunrise.
11. Meet someone who will change my life.
12. Learn something new about myself.
13. Sit at home all day doing nothing.
14. Meet great people.
15. Find out who my true friends are.
16. Go to the beach with my best friend.
17. See a celebrity.
18. Paint a picture.
19. Write a poem.
20. Write a book.....hhahaha fail.....
21. Run a mile.
22. Get my N.
23. Go to a concert.oh well. theres always next yeaaar!
24. Go to a scary movie.
25. Have a really long phone call
26. Have a really short phone call.
27. Play an april fools joke on someone.
28. Celebrate Star Wars Day. (LOL)
29. Have a memorable summer.
30. Do something I am proud of.
31. Be involved in something I'll never forget.
32. Throw a surprise party.
33. Be on TV

i'm extremely proud of what i have accomplished in the past year. however, there is so much more to go. i can already tell you that i have so much to look forward to in the upcoming year:

january: my birthday

february: encounter

march: guadalahajra

april:sunrun

may: final swim season, 365, grad, university acceptance???

june: final swim season, summer, last provincial exams ever!!!!

july: final swim season, summer, vacation

august: move into res @ new school, summer vacation

september: first month of university

october: thanksgiving weekend to explore my university town

november: we have yet to establish

december: coming home to everyone for christmas :)

anyways, though i did recieve a lot good things in 2010 and i am extremely thankful for them, i also know that i worked my ass off for everything that i recieved. soooo resolutions for next year???

- keep working hard.

- forgive easier

- walk slower

- enjoy every moment

happy new year everyone. my wish for everyone is that your 2011 will be as amazing as my 2010.

time flies!!

im home from my trip!! long time no blog. so much to do, so little time.
working ALOT, worked today, currently in the middle of applying to universities, omg still have to do scholarship applications, omg omg wowee wowee........... Found old videos that my friends sylvia elyse and i made when we were in grade 8. made me extremely nostalgic.
okay well thats all for now. till next time

merry christmas!!!