1. celebrated 365 days
2. completed all my grade 12 courses (now just have exams)
3. stopped wearing makeup
4. got a second summer job
5. had my senior prom
6. graduated (ceremonially)
so now it's crunch time. here we go.....
Monday, June 6
Wednesday, March 30
i find myself packing for my last pc camp. and weirdly nostalgic.
i guess its kind of late for me to realize that these next 2 months will be a last of a lot of things. last pc camp, last parliament meetings, last 2 bio tests.... last day 1's, last day 2's, last days as a celtic.
as my university decision looms in the very near future, i am both excited, sad, and scared for my life. my whole life, my parents would always say, "When you're in university" or "save that money for university" and it's so hard to believe that i'm almost there. hard to believe i'm 18 years old.......... i have the same amount of energy (actually probably more) than when i walked into this school 5 years ago.
shit
i guess its kind of late for me to realize that these next 2 months will be a last of a lot of things. last pc camp, last parliament meetings, last 2 bio tests.... last day 1's, last day 2's, last days as a celtic.
as my university decision looms in the very near future, i am both excited, sad, and scared for my life. my whole life, my parents would always say, "When you're in university" or "save that money for university" and it's so hard to believe that i'm almost there. hard to believe i'm 18 years old.......... i have the same amount of energy (actually probably more) than when i walked into this school 5 years ago.
shit
Monday, March 28
Saturday, March 26
inspired.
can't help but keep thinking about my adventures in mexico. yadda yadda its already over etc etc..... but at the end of the day, does it really matter? these people are still there. i'm still here. these people are so happy, so gracious, and then you come here and its a totally different world.
i was talking to a university the other day, and they were asking me questions re:a scholarship. when they asked me if there was anything else i wanted to say, and i realized i wanted to tell them about my adventure. about the people i met, the places i've been do, and my immense desire to help. make a difference.
but yeah. oh my gosh.... if this astronaut thing doesn't work out, i'm going to be doing something where i can help people and make them happy. and that, is that.
i was talking to a university the other day, and they were asking me questions re:a scholarship. when they asked me if there was anything else i wanted to say, and i realized i wanted to tell them about my adventure. about the people i met, the places i've been do, and my immense desire to help. make a difference.
but yeah. oh my gosh.... if this astronaut thing doesn't work out, i'm going to be doing something where i can help people and make them happy. and that, is that.
Thursday, March 24
mmhmmm
first to admit i was weary about going on this trip, but sosososososo happy i went. honestly, one of the best trips i've ever been on, never have i laughed so hard. Though Mexico is nothing new to me the people and places never seem to amaze me. The work we did there meant more to me than laying on a beach or by a pool, and the things i learned are priceless.
Number one? be happy. We see so many people with literally nothing.... we stepped into their homes that had no doors and housed probably about 20 people, and yet they're so quick to offer us a place in their house if we wanted to stay for a couple days. They remain so gracious to be alive, making me even more thankful to be alive. God is love.
Number one? be happy. We see so many people with literally nothing.... we stepped into their homes that had no doors and housed probably about 20 people, and yet they're so quick to offer us a place in their house if we wanted to stay for a couple days. They remain so gracious to be alive, making me even more thankful to be alive. God is love.
Monday, March 14
interesting
i've taken a new liking to internet shopping. haven't bought anything yet.... but i like to look at pictures of things are pretend what my life would be like if i owned them. my internet shopping has just gotten LOADS easier because i am learning to take advantage of the parcel service in the states (about 15 mins from my house) that will save me shitloads of $$$ in the long run, on shipping and paying canadian $ haha!
i've already got a pretty swim suit for my summers outside doing laps + teaching lessons lined up, and some acessories will soon be in order.
oh geez. here we go.
i've already got a pretty swim suit for my summers outside doing laps + teaching lessons lined up, and some acessories will soon be in order.
oh geez. here we go.
Thursday, March 10
10
i sit here tired, worn out, lost of inspiration. they're working us youngins too hard. i sit here and wonder if university is going to get harder than this. my god! i hope not. but then again, i guess that we can't stop anything we can't handle right?
so i'm embarking on a mexican adventure next week and i'm pretty stoked to see what goes down. though there is a spiritual aspect to it i'm more excited to go garden and play with little mexican children!! and hopefully get a tan haha! oh gee.
but yeah i've been SUPER cranky lately and i've gotta work on it. also, i really want to go shopping.... tsktsktsk erika you should be saving that money for university.
wow this is the longest blog i posted in a LONG time. sad lyfe
time to go bust my ass at the gym, later days
so i'm embarking on a mexican adventure next week and i'm pretty stoked to see what goes down. though there is a spiritual aspect to it i'm more excited to go garden and play with little mexican children!! and hopefully get a tan haha! oh gee.
but yeah i've been SUPER cranky lately and i've gotta work on it. also, i really want to go shopping.... tsktsktsk erika you should be saving that money for university.
wow this is the longest blog i posted in a LONG time. sad lyfe
time to go bust my ass at the gym, later days
Monday, March 7
7
A Daughter is telling her mother how everything is going wrong, she's failing math, her boyfriend broke up with her and her best friend is moving away. Meanwhile, her mother was making a cake and asked her daughter if she would like a snack, and the daughter says, "Absolutley mom, I love your cakes!"
"Here, have some cooking oil," her mother offers. "Yuck!!" says her daughter.
"How about a couple raw eggs?" "Gross, Mom!"
"How about some flour then? Or maybe baking soda?" "Mom, those are all yucky!"
To which the mother replies, "Yes, those things may seem bad all by themselves, but when they are all put together in the right way, they make something wonderful!"
God works the same way. Many times we wonder why He would let us go through such bad and difficult times. But God knows that when he puts these things all in his order, they always work for good! We just have to trust Him, and eventually, they will all make something wonderful!
God is crazy about you. He sends you flowers every spring, and a sunrise every morning.
Whenever you want to talk, He will listen. He could have lived anywhere in the world, but he chose your heart.
"Here, have some cooking oil," her mother offers. "Yuck!!" says her daughter.
"How about a couple raw eggs?" "Gross, Mom!"
"How about some flour then? Or maybe baking soda?" "Mom, those are all yucky!"
To which the mother replies, "Yes, those things may seem bad all by themselves, but when they are all put together in the right way, they make something wonderful!"
God works the same way. Many times we wonder why He would let us go through such bad and difficult times. But God knows that when he puts these things all in his order, they always work for good! We just have to trust Him, and eventually, they will all make something wonderful!
God is crazy about you. He sends you flowers every spring, and a sunrise every morning.
Whenever you want to talk, He will listen. He could have lived anywhere in the world, but he chose your heart.
Sunday, March 6
Wednesday, March 2
Wednesday, February 23
Friday, February 18
18
sometimes i just want to pack up and leave all of this behind. i want to journey to egypt or london or paris or madrid, anywhere that can offer me a difference out of the routine. though i follow my mom's rule of travel (always try somewhere new) i would not mind revisiting chicago or florida or nyc. 2 summers ago, my mom and i ventured to new york city and i can say with all sincerity that it was the best trip of my life (with florida coming in at a close second). i especially loved central park and the museums - the museum of natural history and MOMA were my favourites. i loved the small cafe we went to in harlem, heck i even loved the church service my mom made me go to (so inspiring..... people so passionate about their faith. opening hymn was like 20 min long.... i wish i grew up in that). new york was just a city full of opportunity, a city of lights, of sounds, of smells...... and i wish i was part of it.
i've been thinking a lot about material things lately and i have decided that they no longer satisfy me. when i get back from school next year (yes i've decided on queen's unless some other wild opportunity comes up) i'm going to save all my money to 1)pay off my inevitably immense student loan and 2)travel the world. vancouver's amazing, but i need to experience the world before i can truly appreciate my home.
Monday, February 14
14
happy valentines day! i have the most sweeetest boyfriend ever that spoils me to bits................... making my first real valentines day sosososo special. surprised me with black shatter AND katy perry collection yesterday.... and so many wonderful treats today. glad he enjoyed my baking!!!!!then came home to my belated bday present from my cousin!! soo00ooo bomb.
happy girl. :):):)
now to clean ma room
Wednesday, February 9
finally something to blog about
on my way to kickboxing, i had to drop off dinner for schmucks at the blockbuster. nevermind that it was 2 days overdue.... i was hurrying to kickboxing class. i tore into a parking spot and killed the engine but left my car in drive. as i went to the quik drop, i hear a car horn honking.
I turn around to see my car, door open, driving away BY ITSELF!!! i had to run to race and jump in and thankfully i stepped on the brakes.
Why does my mom ever let me use her car, again?
I turn around to see my car, door open, driving away BY ITSELF!!! i had to run to race and jump in and thankfully i stepped on the brakes.
Why does my mom ever let me use her car, again?
Monday, February 7
7
i'm a weird girl. some things just don't phase me.... often the big things. strange how i can control myself sometimes when i see the important stuff slipping out of my grip, yet have a spaz when i lose my gym pass or wake up 10 minutes late and almost miss my bus. how does that work?
i guess my goal for the week is to control myself. control my complaining, control my anger, control my lashing out, control my tiredness. control my hunger, control my work ethic... heck why am i even writing in this blog now? i should be applying for a scholarship or doing my lit or doing my grad trans or taking a bath or sleeping.
but then i step back and see lifes pretty good.... works good schools good (mostly) friends good boyfriends good. so why am i even complaining?
and then it begins.
friend gave me a journal for my birthday. going to start writing. i need to get these emotions out in a place where i can feel it and see it. I'm going to write in it and not read it until the journal is full.
until next time.
i guess my goal for the week is to control myself. control my complaining, control my anger, control my lashing out, control my tiredness. control my hunger, control my work ethic... heck why am i even writing in this blog now? i should be applying for a scholarship or doing my lit or doing my grad trans or taking a bath or sleeping.
but then i step back and see lifes pretty good.... works good schools good (mostly) friends good boyfriends good. so why am i even complaining?
and then it begins.
friend gave me a journal for my birthday. going to start writing. i need to get these emotions out in a place where i can feel it and see it. I'm going to write in it and not read it until the journal is full.
until next time.
Sunday, February 6
5.
as of late........ exhaustion. Never worked so hard in my life, the last week has been HELL. Honestly when I join the real workforce in 6-8 years or w.e I don't know what I'm going to do on the weekends...... or any day after work for that matter haha!
Today, I woke up at 7, gym, work, home, nap, work. just starting homework now. I'm confident that I'm going to die. Kill me now, please.
Today, I woke up at 7, gym, work, home, nap, work. just starting homework now. I'm confident that I'm going to die. Kill me now, please.
Wednesday, February 2
Tuesday, February 1
1
lost my will to blog. too tired. to much homework. sorry writing corner of my brain, you're on hiatus for now.
Saturday, January 29
18
eighteen years old and never felt so loved in my life. my friends are the best. thank you for the wonderful suprise and presents, they really mean a lot. oh and i love my boyfriend and bestfriend for thinking up the whole crazy plan. soooo good ♥ a million thankyous!
Wednesday, January 26
good changes
i used to figure skate. used to, as in since i was in grade 1 and quit last year. anyways, last year i realized i didn't love it anymore (and i was tired of my ass being soaked and bruised all the time) so i quit. and decided to take up kickboxing instead.
OMG best decision of ma lifeee!!!!!! started in sept and its just starting up after xmas.... best workout of ma life. instructors chill n have sooo much fun. maybe yoga next? loool
Monday, January 24
Sunday, January 23
Wednesday, January 19
love........
time and time again i try not to be a materialistic person. but makeup ALWAYS gets me. guess its the feeling of possiblity when you enter sephora/drugstore/department store and it's like......... i could get any shade of anything i want in here. and then that feeling when you walk out of the store with a shiny bag and a little treat for yourself in there.... oh ma gad!!! best feeling ever.
anyways, on my latest expedition i quested to find foundation. i've decided that i splurge on face makeup and save on eye makeup (but only mascara and eyeliner)... long story. anyways i decided it was time when a) realized ive been using my (kind of unsatisfactory) smashbox concealer as foundation for the past million years, AND it was almost done!!! oh and b) had like $90 in gift cards to sephora.
so $50 later i ended up with...
make up for ever hd foundation
anyways, on my latest expedition i quested to find foundation. i've decided that i splurge on face makeup and save on eye makeup (but only mascara and eyeliner)... long story. anyways i decided it was time when a) realized ive been using my (kind of unsatisfactory) smashbox concealer as foundation for the past million years, AND it was almost done!!! oh and b) had like $90 in gift cards to sephora.
so $50 later i ended up with...
make up for ever hd foundation
and i LOVE it!!!!! goes on silky smooth and stays on allllll day and the lady helped me get the right shade! yayyayyay!!!
anyways now time to do my english and lit homework then watch friends and maybe take a nap before kickboxing!!!!! only 10 friends episodes away from crossing off "watch every episode of friends" on my 43things list! HOORAY
seeyalater
Thursday, January 13
tgit
thank god its thursday. meaning that its a night i can actually relax after heading to the gym. dont have to do any more homework till sunday night. heading to the states tomorrow night. work then fondue with ma grrl on sat. and sunday? who knows =).... all i do know is that my weekend will end on monday with qoola the most fav thing in the whole wide world!!! my weekends are flying by. before i know it i'm gonna be 18........ goddamn i'm old.
i must say that in the busyness that is my senior year, i have yet to expand my artistic skills. my oil paints and an unused canvas are sitting in my room, waiting for time and inspiration. goshhhhhh i guess i really can't focus with all the scholarship applications looming in the background!!!
on a FINAL note, finalized my university applications! done and done! UBC, St.FX, and Queen's. I wanted to apply to McGill as well, but honestly i don't see myself going there first year anymore. plus its crazy expensive, and i used the money on that application fee to apply for res at ubc instead hehehh:):):)
anyways thats all for now! see ya on the other side of this weekend.
Tuesday, January 11
Thursday, January 6
as of late
i have been finding myself disgusted with school. its only january 6. come on.
btdubs, merry ukranian christmas!!!
Tuesday, January 4
just like january
currently: home from a successful day of shopping, full from crepes my dad made that i found in my fridge, and cleaning out my room for the last half of the school year.
winter break went by quick, as usual. i wouldn't exactly say it was a rest but it was a break from school, which was allright. ugh my work hours are killer this set, 830-4 saturdays and 9-1 sundays.
the next 3 months are going to fly by. at the end of it i'll be supposedly 'changed' hopefully tanned and another year older. and hopefully owning a credit card!!! is it true you can have one at 18? oh and exhausted as usual.
applying for universities lately has made me EXTREMELY anxious about next year. still so much to figure out and i really don't know whats going to go down. i guess we'll have to wait and find out. all i know is that i kinda wanna expand my horizons.
ok ok thats the end of my rambling for now. til next time.
Friday, December 31
the obligatory new years post.
2. Discover and explore new hobbies, develop the ones I am beginning to take to.
3. Do something that benefits society or the world.
4. Do one thing a day that scares me. i HAVE been doing this
5. Try something I normally wouldn't try and like it.
6. Leave the country
7. Go to the dentist and be able to say that I DO floss regularily.
8. Exercise even more, Eat less.
9. Sleep under the stars.
10. Watch a sunrise.
11. Meet someone who will change my life.
12. Learn something new about myself.
13. Sit at home all day doing nothing.
14. Meet great people.
15. Find out who my true friends are.
16. Go to the beach with my best friend.
17. See a celebrity.
18. Paint a picture.
19. Write a poem.
20. Write a book.....hhahaha fail.....
21. Run a mile.
22. Get my N.
23. Go to a concert.oh well. theres always next yeaaar!
24. Go to a scary movie.
25. Have a really long phone call
26. Have a really short phone call.
27. Play an april fools joke on someone.
28. Celebrate Star Wars Day. (LOL)
29. Have a memorable summer.
30. Do something I am proud of.
31. Be involved in something I'll never forget.
32. Throw a surprise party.
33. Be on TV
i'm extremely proud of what i have accomplished in the past year. however, there is so much more to go. i can already tell you that i have so much to look forward to in the upcoming year:
january: my birthday
february: encounter
march: guadalahajra
april:sunrun
may: final swim season, 365, grad, university acceptance???
june: final swim season, summer, last provincial exams ever!!!!
july: final swim season, summer, vacation
august: move into res @ new school, summer vacation
september: first month of university
october: thanksgiving weekend to explore my university town
november: we have yet to establish
december: coming home to everyone for christmas :)
anyways, though i did recieve a lot good things in 2010 and i am extremely thankful for them, i also know that i worked my ass off for everything that i recieved. soooo resolutions for next year???
- keep working hard.
- forgive easier
- walk slower
- enjoy every moment
happy new year everyone. my wish for everyone is that your 2011 will be as amazing as my 2010.
Wednesday, December 29
time flies!!
im home from my trip!! long time no blog. so much to do, so little time.
working ALOT, worked today, currently in the middle of applying to universities, omg still have to do scholarship applications, omg omg wowee wowee........... Found old videos that my friends sylvia elyse and i made when we were in grade 8. made me extremely nostalgic.
okay well thats all for now. till next time
working ALOT, worked today, currently in the middle of applying to universities, omg still have to do scholarship applications, omg omg wowee wowee........... Found old videos that my friends sylvia elyse and i made when we were in grade 8. made me extremely nostalgic.
okay well thats all for now. till next time
Friday, December 24
Sunday, December 19
Tuesday, December 14
mmm mm
mmmm mm candy canes gingerbread houses and wrapping presents and hot chocolate and cloudy with a chance of flurries mmmm mmmm mm christmas
so excited. parliament is putting on the talent show this friday and i'm super happy + grateful i got to be involved in this. im REALLY looking forward tothis, its gonna be bomb. its at the point where i don't even care if the student body likes what we've done, but i'm so proud of us - of how far we've come and of what we've been able to manufacture.
and i've said this before and i'll say it again, I AM SO EXCITED TO GIVE MY CHRISTMAS PRESENTS!!!!! eeeEEEeeeeEEeeeee cant wait to see everyone's happy faces. even if my remaining spending money amount is now in the single digits.
so excited. parliament is putting on the talent show this friday and i'm super happy + grateful i got to be involved in this. im REALLY looking forward tothis, its gonna be bomb. its at the point where i don't even care if the student body likes what we've done, but i'm so proud of us - of how far we've come and of what we've been able to manufacture.
and i've said this before and i'll say it again, I AM SO EXCITED TO GIVE MY CHRISTMAS PRESENTS!!!!! eeeEEEeeeeEEeeeee cant wait to see everyone's happy faces. even if my remaining spending money amount is now in the single digits.
Monday, December 13
christmas is near
i've got to say, i had a LOT of fun shopping for my christmas presents this year. i can't wait for my friends and fam to open their gifts under their trees (or when i give it to them) this year, cause i REALLY put a lot of thought and effort into all my gifts :) :$
i dont even want anything for christmas this year!!!!! having fun is enough. sleeping enough, time to myself is enough. the gift im giving to myself is a day at home doing absolutely nothing. just me and my 7 literary novels im supposed to read for AP lit club loool..... peace to me.
happy holidays!!! all we need now is snow (though i can't complain about the mild weather :))
i dont even want anything for christmas this year!!!!! having fun is enough. sleeping enough, time to myself is enough. the gift im giving to myself is a day at home doing absolutely nothing. just me and my 7 literary novels im supposed to read for AP lit club loool..... peace to me.
happy holidays!!! all we need now is snow (though i can't complain about the mild weather :))
Thursday, December 9
worr(fr)ee
i am first to say that i am a worrywart. not about super irrational things, per se, like my house burning down or the canada line train i am on getting bombed or "the big one" earthquake that's supposed to happen here anytime between now and the next 190 years.
i worry more about things in my life. i worry about failure.
i don't get usual nightmares. people i know get them about paranormal activity and bank robbers and voldemort...... but i wake up in a cold sweat to the dorkiest things ever. time and time again i've woken up with a sigh of relief because i realised i actually did NOT miss a shift of work in real life (irresponsibly of course) or that i DID complete the giant project due today on time.
i guess my worry of these silly things began when i adopted a new mantra in grade 9 - "expect the worst, hope for the best". the idea was that if we expected the worst, we would never be dissapointed. it went well and all, but as the days of yore passed me by, i began to realize how UNHAPPY this mantra made me. instead of having any hope for the future whatsoever, i instead became crabby and attempted to stop relying on people because i KNEW they were going to let me down.
and then i realized: why am i making myself so unhappy?!?! worry or not, the outcome will still be the same. so i can spend that time worrying about my cookies burning making another batch, instead of twiddling my thumbs and checking them every two minutes, even though the oven is on timer.
so my new pledge is to create a plan b then remain hopeful. that way, i don't have to gain gray hairs while i'm waiting for something to happen. never a bad thing.
i worry more about things in my life. i worry about failure.
i don't get usual nightmares. people i know get them about paranormal activity and bank robbers and voldemort...... but i wake up in a cold sweat to the dorkiest things ever. time and time again i've woken up with a sigh of relief because i realised i actually did NOT miss a shift of work in real life (irresponsibly of course) or that i DID complete the giant project due today on time.
i guess my worry of these silly things began when i adopted a new mantra in grade 9 - "expect the worst, hope for the best". the idea was that if we expected the worst, we would never be dissapointed. it went well and all, but as the days of yore passed me by, i began to realize how UNHAPPY this mantra made me. instead of having any hope for the future whatsoever, i instead became crabby and attempted to stop relying on people because i KNEW they were going to let me down.
and then i realized: why am i making myself so unhappy?!?! worry or not, the outcome will still be the same. so i can spend that time worrying about my cookies burning making another batch, instead of twiddling my thumbs and checking them every two minutes, even though the oven is on timer.
so my new pledge is to create a plan b then remain hopeful. that way, i don't have to gain gray hairs while i'm waiting for something to happen. never a bad thing.
Sunday, December 5
Friday, December 3
as of late
exams are finally over!! though i've finished all that stuff till monday, there is still so much to be done... SLEEP the major priority. I guess i'm one of those girls who needs her sleep....... and without it i turn into a zombie-monster cross.
i think it's work that's killing me though, even though i can sleep in till 8 on both saturday and sunday, its not noon like i used to. my late night phone conversations aren't exactly helping my sleeping patterns either........ nights where i do finish my homework i find myself just talking on the phone longer rather than sleeping.
"sleep is for the weak"
call me weak.
on the bright side, FINALLY got my $15 sephora beauty insider gift card in my email!!! been browsing the site ALLLLL day to see what i'm gonna buy :):):) so00o exciting seeing as i won't be spending money on myself (besides necessary coffees and green tea) until january 1st.
tgif, enjoy your weekend everyone!
i think it's work that's killing me though, even though i can sleep in till 8 on both saturday and sunday, its not noon like i used to. my late night phone conversations aren't exactly helping my sleeping patterns either........ nights where i do finish my homework i find myself just talking on the phone longer rather than sleeping.
"sleep is for the weak"
call me weak.
on the bright side, FINALLY got my $15 sephora beauty insider gift card in my email!!! been browsing the site ALLLLL day to see what i'm gonna buy :):):) so00o exciting seeing as i won't be spending money on myself (besides necessary coffees and green tea) until january 1st.
tgif, enjoy your weekend everyone!
Tuesday, November 30
Sunday, November 28
procrastinating
so much to do.... just got home (kinda) from a 9-4 day at the office {a.k.a. the pool} and i've still got much to do. i have to study for bio and chem and lit and math and french and apply for scholarships and universities and clean my room and paint my nails and figure out christmas gifts and go to the gym and fold my laundry and talk to my boyfriend and talk to my friends and ghkakljgiapojgp agas;kjgeiolrjnmf k;jasfoeriaksf;kljdaskldkmls..................................................
i guess you could say that i was at that point where i was like "i don't give a damn" but i guess some stuff happened and it made me realize that i really do give a damn. in fact i give 3 or 4 damns if i really think about it. i give so many damns that i could house like 100000000 beavers or something in there.
anyways all that damn giving has made me really tired.
and now back to the books.....
i guess you could say that i was at that point where i was like "i don't give a damn" but i guess some stuff happened and it made me realize that i really do give a damn. in fact i give 3 or 4 damns if i really think about it. i give so many damns that i could house like 100000000 beavers or something in there.
anyways all that damn giving has made me really tired.
and now back to the books.....
Thursday, November 25
Monday, November 22
GOOD day
best day i've had in weeks. ironically a monday.
1. actually ready for school on time
2. interesting bio class
3. on top of the ball for chem
4. didnt die in lit
5. finished my english essay with time to spare!!!!
6. found out bunch of stuff that made me happy/relieved
7. i have the best boyfriend ever :$
8. it smells like snow
9. kickboxing tonight
10. i actually have FREE TIME
11. sent off my first major entrance awards application to Queen's!! applied to the school on the weekend. $210 later....... sorry mom. HAY its an investment
i love life. now to stress about exams
1. actually ready for school on time
2. interesting bio class
3. on top of the ball for chem
4. didnt die in lit
5. finished my english essay with time to spare!!!!
6. found out bunch of stuff that made me happy/relieved
7. i have the best boyfriend ever :$
8. it smells like snow
9. kickboxing tonight
10. i actually have FREE TIME
11. sent off my first major entrance awards application to Queen's!! applied to the school on the weekend. $210 later....... sorry mom. HAY its an investment
i love life. now to stress about exams
Thursday, November 18
Monday, November 15
Sunday, November 14
Wednesday, November 10
sick as a dog
so i'm past my breaking point. attempted to tough it out and try to go to school today AGAIN..... which failed................ and ended up getting sent home for the weekend. so that's right, no school/life for me till monday!!! woopee!!!
i've never missed so much school in my life. 5 consecutive days of school after this is all over if you count last friday minus the two blocks i attended on monday.
peace to me!!!!
whoever said grade12 was easy is saying complete BS!!!! grade 12 is the hardest mfing thing i've ever had to attempt in ma whole life!! holy crap!!!!
btw. in my sickness emily posted this web site on her wall and i saw it:
damnyouautocorrect.com
funniest website ever. trust me, it will change your life.
i've never missed so much school in my life. 5 consecutive days of school after this is all over if you count last friday minus the two blocks i attended on monday.
peace to me!!!!
whoever said grade12 was easy is saying complete BS!!!! grade 12 is the hardest mfing thing i've ever had to attempt in ma whole life!! holy crap!!!!
btw. in my sickness emily posted this web site on her wall and i saw it:
damnyouautocorrect.com
funniest website ever. trust me, it will change your life.
Tuesday, November 9
Sunday, November 7
meanwhile at my house
this is going to be a complaining blog. just to warn you.
i woke up at 7:30 am today. went to work. taught swimming to rambunctious children for 3 hours. swam for an hour. lifeguarded for rambunctious people for 2 hours. walked home. started my homework.
8 hours after getting home with little/no breaks .....
still working.
and i am sick.
I LOVE LIFE
note the sarcastic underline.
i woke up at 7:30 am today. went to work. taught swimming to rambunctious children for 3 hours. swam for an hour. lifeguarded for rambunctious people for 2 hours. walked home. started my homework.
8 hours after getting home with little/no breaks .....
still working.
and i am sick.
I LOVE LIFE
note the sarcastic underline.
Monday, November 1
the beginning
and with a rather spooky ending, november begins. i'll be first to admit that this is always the month that flys by. every year, i can never really remember what happens in november. well except for last year HAHAHA.
can't help but notice that with the changing seasons and leaves and et cetera comes a lot of changes. a lot a lot. soon i'm gonna have to buckle down and start actually filling out university applications. (my entrance scholarship application form for Queen's is sitting in a folder on my desktop as we speak).
yet november also brings me a LOT to look forward to. 4,15,20. hells yeah
now to write my essay on castaway (cannot STAND the ending btw)
can't help but notice that with the changing seasons and leaves and et cetera comes a lot of changes. a lot a lot. soon i'm gonna have to buckle down and start actually filling out university applications. (my entrance scholarship application form for Queen's is sitting in a folder on my desktop as we speak).
yet november also brings me a LOT to look forward to. 4,15,20. hells yeah
now to write my essay on castaway (cannot STAND the ending btw)
Sunday, October 31
Wednesday, October 27
Monday, October 25
Friday, October 22
another metaphor to life.
i've come to terms with the fact that life is a giant puzzle. you're probably like....... yea stupid, obviously. its not like its one of those paint by numbers where all ya need is a the right paint to make a beautiful (numbered picture). it's not like one of those 3d puzzles..... you know rubix cubes and the like. the kind of puzzle i'm talking about here is 2d, where every piece has a place.
I think everyone's life is a puzzle. I mean, at the end of the day, some people's pieces may be smaller than others, and of course, each picture will be different, some more beautiful then others. But of course, everyone has a common goal - to complete it a-sap.
there's your core corner pieces - you know, the easiest ones to put together, the ones that obviously fit together. this is your life foundation. the bonds between the pieces may be weak at times, but they strengthen and weaken at their own pace. It's pretty hard to complete the rest of the puzzle without the outside border.
then there's your inside pieces - pretty much representing every other aspect of your life.
there's the pieces you're SO DAMN sure are a crucial part of the puzzle that end up being tricks; that don't even belong in the puzzle at all. some people spend their whole life trying to make these pieces fit, but they never fully will.
Then there's the pieces that you put in the puzzle and fit perfectly, and then your cat eats them or they get stuck to something, never to be found again. These are the saddest puzzle pieces because most often then not, these kinds of pieces can never be replaced...
there's the pieces that you put in thinking they're in the right spot, but really are not. you think that putting them a certain way will make a picture of a flower field, but one day, or over time, you realize that the picture your puzzle is trying to make isn't of a flower field of all, but actually a space ship. So they need to be rearranged.
there's the pieces that you KNOW need to be there, but can't seem to find anywhere. When you finally find it, you're so happy. everyone is looking for this piece.
puzzle pieces come and go, get rearranged, and change the bigger picture often in ways we can't imagine. though we've got to be careful to hold on to the puzzle pieces that are a great fit and contribute to making the puzzle whole, we've also got to remember that we can't stress over the pieces we haven't found yet.
we've got to simply keep searching - these missing pieces could be anywhere. under the couch, in the bathtub, still in the box, or accidentally in someone else's puzzle, just waiting for you to even be aware of its existence. all you can really do is keep searching, wish, and hope.
I think everyone's life is a puzzle. I mean, at the end of the day, some people's pieces may be smaller than others, and of course, each picture will be different, some more beautiful then others. But of course, everyone has a common goal - to complete it a-sap.
there's your core corner pieces - you know, the easiest ones to put together, the ones that obviously fit together. this is your life foundation. the bonds between the pieces may be weak at times, but they strengthen and weaken at their own pace. It's pretty hard to complete the rest of the puzzle without the outside border.
then there's your inside pieces - pretty much representing every other aspect of your life.
there's the pieces you're SO DAMN sure are a crucial part of the puzzle that end up being tricks; that don't even belong in the puzzle at all. some people spend their whole life trying to make these pieces fit, but they never fully will.
Then there's the pieces that you put in the puzzle and fit perfectly, and then your cat eats them or they get stuck to something, never to be found again. These are the saddest puzzle pieces because most often then not, these kinds of pieces can never be replaced...
there's the pieces that you put in thinking they're in the right spot, but really are not. you think that putting them a certain way will make a picture of a flower field, but one day, or over time, you realize that the picture your puzzle is trying to make isn't of a flower field of all, but actually a space ship. So they need to be rearranged.
there's the pieces that you KNOW need to be there, but can't seem to find anywhere. When you finally find it, you're so happy. everyone is looking for this piece.
puzzle pieces come and go, get rearranged, and change the bigger picture often in ways we can't imagine. though we've got to be careful to hold on to the puzzle pieces that are a great fit and contribute to making the puzzle whole, we've also got to remember that we can't stress over the pieces we haven't found yet.
we've got to simply keep searching - these missing pieces could be anywhere. under the couch, in the bathtub, still in the box, or accidentally in someone else's puzzle, just waiting for you to even be aware of its existence. all you can really do is keep searching, wish, and hope.
Monday, October 18
life is either a daring adventure or nothing
"do one thing a day that scares you" haaay its paying off
Wednesday, October 13
the future awaits
lately i've just been having the don't give a damn attitude. it's kinda freeing to know that after june 2011, i'm on my own. making choices for myself. don't really know what to expect just yet, but i DO know that from then on, i'll control my own destiny.
the possibilities are endless. me and jess had an interesting conversation about schools today...... so far i'm forsure applying to queens, mcgill & st. fx.... possibly u of t and dalhousie.
and to be quite honest, though sometimes the last thing i want to do is leave, and some things i never want to leave, 90% of the time i cannot wait to get out of here.
the possibilities are endless. me and jess had an interesting conversation about schools today...... so far i'm forsure applying to queens, mcgill & st. fx.... possibly u of t and dalhousie.
and to be quite honest, though sometimes the last thing i want to do is leave, and some things i never want to leave, 90% of the time i cannot wait to get out of here.
Tuesday, October 12
Saturday, October 9
Tuesday, October 5
like a ghost.
seems like the last few weeks of school i've been there but not really there. i'm there physically, taking notes, learning, contributing in class, laughing, smiling, bitching, whining, etc., but i'm not there mentally.
when i remember things that happened at school, especially in class, these days, i remember it as if it were a dream. like i get the jist, and the important points, but the details are lost on me.
seems like i'm kind of floating through grade 12 so far. routine's in -
school school school school home homework homework homework sleep school school school school.
notice the school:homework:sleep ratio.
when i remember things that happened at school, especially in class, these days, i remember it as if it were a dream. like i get the jist, and the important points, but the details are lost on me.
seems like i'm kind of floating through grade 12 so far. routine's in -
school school school school home homework homework homework sleep school school school school.
notice the school:homework:sleep ratio.
Sunday, October 3
quotable
"they say that disney world is the happiest place on earth..... they've obviously never been in your arms...."
sometimes i have to pinch myself to make sure i'm not dreaming.
sometimes i have to pinch myself to make sure i'm not dreaming.
Friday, October 1
Wednesday, September 29
reminder of the day #4
be thankful for your past, because it has made your present.
had a talk with a friend today and our conversation suddenly brought me back to tenth grade memories. i won't expand on the topic much because i really don't want to get into it and it really wasn't that interesting, but to sum it up i fell and couldn't get up for a long time.
what really matters is this; i let one thing, and one person, control my happiness. I let my misery overcome me, until i was a self-loathing, self-pitying person. I was fine on the outside, but i was dying on the inside. at the time, it seemed like the end of the world...
funny thing is i can now look back at this and l o l. of course a part of me wants to travel back in time to 15-year-old me and scream my lungs out at her.
i would tell her to man up and deal with it. i'd tell her that she's beautiful, cause that's all she needed to hear. i'd tell her guys come and go, and she shouldn't let one's stupid choices influence her mood and happiness.
but until a mystical time travel machine is invented, i cannot do that.
and even if one is magically created in this lifetime, i don't think that i'd go back.
cause after my misery and pain and woe-is-me attitude FINALLY passed, i learned. and and i grew. i'll never make the same kind of mistakes and misjudgments again, all cause of the more than slightly-clueless 15 year old verson of myself.
it made me who i am. it made me realize what i want. it made me work, harder then i ever have before. and now its like, dang. lol. realize how perfect everything actually is and tilt your head back and laugh at the sky.
had a talk with a friend today and our conversation suddenly brought me back to tenth grade memories. i won't expand on the topic much because i really don't want to get into it and it really wasn't that interesting, but to sum it up i fell and couldn't get up for a long time.
what really matters is this; i let one thing, and one person, control my happiness. I let my misery overcome me, until i was a self-loathing, self-pitying person. I was fine on the outside, but i was dying on the inside. at the time, it seemed like the end of the world...
funny thing is i can now look back at this and l o l. of course a part of me wants to travel back in time to 15-year-old me and scream my lungs out at her.
i would tell her to man up and deal with it. i'd tell her that she's beautiful, cause that's all she needed to hear. i'd tell her guys come and go, and she shouldn't let one's stupid choices influence her mood and happiness.
but until a mystical time travel machine is invented, i cannot do that.
and even if one is magically created in this lifetime, i don't think that i'd go back.
cause after my misery and pain and woe-is-me attitude FINALLY passed, i learned. and and i grew. i'll never make the same kind of mistakes and misjudgments again, all cause of the more than slightly-clueless 15 year old verson of myself.
it made me who i am. it made me realize what i want. it made me work, harder then i ever have before. and now its like, dang. lol. realize how perfect everything actually is and tilt your head back and laugh at the sky.
hellloo
days are good. sunshine, 22 degrees, cool, crisp fall air. hopes for the future and present ideals. it can't get much better than this.
Thursday, September 23
as we go on we remember
i cried today. not because of sadness..... but nostalgia.
my friend from LFA put up her grad proofs today - you know the drill --- cap, gown, the works. and let me tell you.................... seeing a friend i graduated preschool with in her cap and gown absolutely kills me.
it makes me so excited for the future..... but it also makes me scared.
flash back to the days at preschool. me and sylvia, best friends. we must have gone over to each other's houses every day...... we lived just a few blocks away. she was one of those best friends that i could just have fun with, laugh with, be silly with, and even though i only get to see her a few times a year nowadays, we catch up like no time has gone by.
back in preschool, i couldn't even comprehend what life would be like beyond the sandboxes and tricycles. walking over the literal balance beam from 'preschool' to 'kindergarten' seemed like the biggest deal in the world. i worried about who i would play with the next day, and who my favourite sailor moon character was.
it's hard to believe that at this time next year, i'll be studying to be somebody in the world. i'll have real life loans, real life bills, and facing the real world.
and to be honest, i cant wait for those days. but there's always a small part of me that wishes i was still at the horizon peering into the unknown of grade school.....
my friend from LFA put up her grad proofs today - you know the drill --- cap, gown, the works. and let me tell you.................... seeing a friend i graduated preschool with in her cap and gown absolutely kills me.
it makes me so excited for the future..... but it also makes me scared.
flash back to the days at preschool. me and sylvia, best friends. we must have gone over to each other's houses every day...... we lived just a few blocks away. she was one of those best friends that i could just have fun with, laugh with, be silly with, and even though i only get to see her a few times a year nowadays, we catch up like no time has gone by.
back in preschool, i couldn't even comprehend what life would be like beyond the sandboxes and tricycles. walking over the literal balance beam from 'preschool' to 'kindergarten' seemed like the biggest deal in the world. i worried about who i would play with the next day, and who my favourite sailor moon character was.
it's hard to believe that at this time next year, i'll be studying to be somebody in the world. i'll have real life loans, real life bills, and facing the real world.
and to be honest, i cant wait for those days. but there's always a small part of me that wishes i was still at the horizon peering into the unknown of grade school.....
Sunday, September 12
a complaint free world
so i was at inservice today (seasonal thing where we have to go to work for 4-6 hours but instead of work do team building activities, go over procedures etc.... and get paid for it. i love my job) and we had a presentation on this concept called "A Complaint Free World".
basically this guy wanted the world to be a happier place, so his goal is to reach out to 60 million people (1% of the world's population) and help them try and go 21 days without complaining.
why 21 days? cus thats how long it takes to break a habit.
so what happens is that you get a bracelet. i got mine today. every time you catch yourself complaining (out loud), you switch the bracelet to another hand. that makes you more aware of your words. The idea is that eventually, since you stop verbally complaining, you stop mentally complaining, and your life will become happier, more loving and more enjoyable.
i guess if you stop complaining, you focus on the things you DO have rather than the things you don't and if you accept what you have, you don't really need anything else.
basically this guy wanted the world to be a happier place, so his goal is to reach out to 60 million people (1% of the world's population) and help them try and go 21 days without complaining.
why 21 days? cus thats how long it takes to break a habit.
so what happens is that you get a bracelet. i got mine today. every time you catch yourself complaining (out loud), you switch the bracelet to another hand. that makes you more aware of your words. The idea is that eventually, since you stop verbally complaining, you stop mentally complaining, and your life will become happier, more loving and more enjoyable.
i guess if you stop complaining, you focus on the things you DO have rather than the things you don't and if you accept what you have, you don't really need anything else.
Wednesday, September 1
reminder of the day #3
never take anything for granted.
On my trip to Florida, we ate out almost every night (and consequently I never want to eat restaurant food for a very very long time). One night, we decided to visit this restaurant called Perkins (AMAZING pie and good food).
On our last night, we decided to go back to Perkins. We were seated, and my brother's friend asked if we could have the same server. She was really good - nice, professional, and gave excellent service. Besides that, she had an amazing memory. We had eaten there a few nights earlier and she remembered what my brother's friend had to drink and what my little brother ordered!!!!
After dinner, we were talking with her about how we were travelling. She then started talking to us about her life.
She just had a baby 9 months ago, and it was a miracle baby. It was her 14th pregnancy, and she already took care of her 11 year old nephew full-time (she took custody of him for whatever reason when he was 4). Here she was, working late nights- often til 1 am, baby at home and only got 6 months off with her.
What i learned most from this server was how happy, despite many obstacles in her life, that baby made her. She told us about how all her friends would be bringing around baby pictures and that finally at 35 she was also able to do so. She was showing us proudly and we saw pictures of her nephew and daughter on her cell phone. Here she could be complaning about everything going wrong in her life, but instead she beams about the things that have gone right.
After our conversation, she gave us the bill and told her the pie was on her. We left a big tip as we left. However, we're still in debt, cause the insight she gave me is worth more than anything you can buy.
On my trip to Florida, we ate out almost every night (and consequently I never want to eat restaurant food for a very very long time). One night, we decided to visit this restaurant called Perkins (AMAZING pie and good food).
On our last night, we decided to go back to Perkins. We were seated, and my brother's friend asked if we could have the same server. She was really good - nice, professional, and gave excellent service. Besides that, she had an amazing memory. We had eaten there a few nights earlier and she remembered what my brother's friend had to drink and what my little brother ordered!!!!
After dinner, we were talking with her about how we were travelling. She then started talking to us about her life.
She just had a baby 9 months ago, and it was a miracle baby. It was her 14th pregnancy, and she already took care of her 11 year old nephew full-time (she took custody of him for whatever reason when he was 4). Here she was, working late nights- often til 1 am, baby at home and only got 6 months off with her.
What i learned most from this server was how happy, despite many obstacles in her life, that baby made her. She told us about how all her friends would be bringing around baby pictures and that finally at 35 she was also able to do so. She was showing us proudly and we saw pictures of her nephew and daughter on her cell phone. Here she could be complaning about everything going wrong in her life, but instead she beams about the things that have gone right.
After our conversation, she gave us the bill and told her the pie was on her. We left a big tip as we left. However, we're still in debt, cause the insight she gave me is worth more than anything you can buy.
Friday, August 27
LOL
Some lady starts waving frantically at my mom while were at a stoplight. Panicked, my mom rolls down the window and the lady went all through the kerfuffle to say "WE VE GOT THE SAME CAR"
Saturday, August 21
Haaay haaay from the sunshine state. I love it. Love its beaty, love the weather, love the people. I even love the rain. Florida's amazing because its not indecisive. Its hot alllll day. If the sun shines youre catchin rays every second. And if it rains, it pours. I'm dreading what i have to face back home.
Monday, August 16
reminder of the day #2
Things don't always turn out the way you want them to.
But that doesn't mean that they'll turn out worse than you wanted.
have patience, keep calm, and live freely. listen, and learn. seek harmony in everything, one day at a time.
But that doesn't mean that they'll turn out worse than you wanted.
have patience, keep calm, and live freely. listen, and learn. seek harmony in everything, one day at a time.
reminder of the day #1
grabbed some timmy hos on saturday on the way up to whistler. so all was well and good, ordered a sesame bagel with strawberry cream cheese and in a generally good mood. i went off to the side to wait for my bagel out of courtesy for the people behind me wanting to order in line, and then this obnoxious business guy finishes his order and stands beside me. some food pops up ON THE COUNTER and the guy snatches it and heads out the door.
the cashier lady looks at me and goes "you didn't get yours yet?"
i say no
she says "i guess that guy mustve taken it.... i'll make you another one". what a sweet lady.
two minutes later the guy comes marching in. "YOU GUYS GAVE ME THE WRONG THING!" and snatches the next food item that comes up. luckily the lady spotted him and knew it was mine so she quickly told him.
they forgot the strawberry cream cheese and used plain instead, but the lady already took so much shit from the obnoxious guy that i spared her my moaning and groaning about what turned out to be a pretty decent bagel.
people in this society are too full of pride to take the blame anymore. i mean, how hard would it have been for the guy to return in, a little sheepish, and say, "sorry i was in such a hurry i must have taken the wrong thing by accident". it wouldn't have been a big deal, and everyone would have been understanding.
instead, he decided to turn it all around and blame the poor 8 dollar an hour worker for his impatience and stupidity.
with maturity comes great responsibility. honor it............ for the sake of this earth. please.
taking responsibility is kinda like getting a pimple. you can choose to blame it on your diet, your facewash, the fight you had with your boyfriend, let it ruin your day and limit your confidence, and then try to cover it up with a pound of makeup and end up making it look worse than it did in the first place.
or you can acknowledge it, give it a little tender loving care, invest in some good concealer (clinique wins here hands down. just sayin) and respect yourself and others in the process- its your choice.
anyways that was my reminder of the day - take responsibility. cus i know i'd respect someone more for owning up then covering up anyday.
the cashier lady looks at me and goes "you didn't get yours yet?"
i say no
she says "i guess that guy mustve taken it.... i'll make you another one". what a sweet lady.
two minutes later the guy comes marching in. "YOU GUYS GAVE ME THE WRONG THING!" and snatches the next food item that comes up. luckily the lady spotted him and knew it was mine so she quickly told him.
they forgot the strawberry cream cheese and used plain instead, but the lady already took so much shit from the obnoxious guy that i spared her my moaning and groaning about what turned out to be a pretty decent bagel.
people in this society are too full of pride to take the blame anymore. i mean, how hard would it have been for the guy to return in, a little sheepish, and say, "sorry i was in such a hurry i must have taken the wrong thing by accident". it wouldn't have been a big deal, and everyone would have been understanding.
instead, he decided to turn it all around and blame the poor 8 dollar an hour worker for his impatience and stupidity.
with maturity comes great responsibility. honor it............ for the sake of this earth. please.
taking responsibility is kinda like getting a pimple. you can choose to blame it on your diet, your facewash, the fight you had with your boyfriend, let it ruin your day and limit your confidence, and then try to cover it up with a pound of makeup and end up making it look worse than it did in the first place.
or you can acknowledge it, give it a little tender loving care, invest in some good concealer (clinique wins here hands down. just sayin) and respect yourself and others in the process- its your choice.
anyways that was my reminder of the day - take responsibility. cus i know i'd respect someone more for owning up then covering up anyday.
Saturday, August 14
alive
been thinking about it since march 2009.......... and finally got around to doing something i've been meaning to do since then................BUNGEE JUMPING!!!!!
my new mantra in life is that you regret more the things you didn't do than the things you did do. and today proved that. as i jumped off the platform i felt alive. and my summer was made right there.
its a feeling like none other. best $130 ever spent. and best of all, now i'm officially a lifetime member so i can now jump anytime i want for 80 bucks.
and if you'd ask me to describe it in 2 words, i'd only be able to say.........
HELL YEAH
my new mantra in life is that you regret more the things you didn't do than the things you did do. and today proved that. as i jumped off the platform i felt alive. and my summer was made right there.
its a feeling like none other. best $130 ever spent. and best of all, now i'm officially a lifetime member so i can now jump anytime i want for 80 bucks.
and if you'd ask me to describe it in 2 words, i'd only be able to say.........
HELL YEAH
Tuesday, August 10
Saturday, August 7
god bless the rain
we didn't recieve one drop of rain for the entire month of july, and on the day my cousin leaves, i think the rain is a welcomed change.
for me, rain has never been about doom and gloom. it has been about refreshment, starting anew, and life. if you know me, you know i love water - being in and around it is literally my life - so nothing puts me in a better mood than when its literally pouring from the sky.
i've watched rain wash away sidewalk chalk masterpieces, creating blank canvases for the world's artists. i've seen the liquid sunshine delay and cancell various sports games and events - but more than often enough the break was needed and welcomed. i've seen rain ruin hairstyles, proms, and weddings - giving everything a natural look.
nature was designed to welcome and thrive the rain. natives danced and sang about the rain, and it was thought of as a gift in countries where there was a drought most of the year.
i think we should welcome the rain in the same way. rain is real. rain is powerful. rain is strong. rain washes away the dust, dirt, and grime, so we can see the earth in all it's glory.
my parents were married on a rainy day. after 25+ happy years together, some would say they suffered for a day of rain for a lifetime of 'sunshine'. i disagree. i think they've lasted so long because their relationship is real. and beautiful. even in the rain.
for me, rain has never been about doom and gloom. it has been about refreshment, starting anew, and life. if you know me, you know i love water - being in and around it is literally my life - so nothing puts me in a better mood than when its literally pouring from the sky.
i've watched rain wash away sidewalk chalk masterpieces, creating blank canvases for the world's artists. i've seen the liquid sunshine delay and cancell various sports games and events - but more than often enough the break was needed and welcomed. i've seen rain ruin hairstyles, proms, and weddings - giving everything a natural look.
nature was designed to welcome and thrive the rain. natives danced and sang about the rain, and it was thought of as a gift in countries where there was a drought most of the year.
i think we should welcome the rain in the same way. rain is real. rain is powerful. rain is strong. rain washes away the dust, dirt, and grime, so we can see the earth in all it's glory.
my parents were married on a rainy day. after 25+ happy years together, some would say they suffered for a day of rain for a lifetime of 'sunshine'. i disagree. i think they've lasted so long because their relationship is real. and beautiful. even in the rain.
Wednesday, August 4
Westcoast represent
Over the last week or so i've been more productive than i have all summer. Not that lazing around is bad---- i reward myself for a successful year with a whole summer of lollygagging-- but i must say its a refreshing change of pace.
My favourite cousin is visiting right now so i'm using her as an excuse to indulge in all my vancouver faves. I toured my own city in chinatown,burnaby, grouse, and whistler. Made me realize 2 things:
1. Love my city too death.
2. I know it too well.
Im happy im soon getting a break from this place for a while. Though i will miss the qoola (if you havent tasted it yet run dont walk to metrotown this second and buy it. You wont regret it.
My favourite cousin is visiting right now so i'm using her as an excuse to indulge in all my vancouver faves. I toured my own city in chinatown,burnaby, grouse, and whistler. Made me realize 2 things:
1. Love my city too death.
2. I know it too well.
Im happy im soon getting a break from this place for a while. Though i will miss the qoola (if you havent tasted it yet run dont walk to metrotown this second and buy it. You wont regret it.
Friday, July 30
all you brothers n sisters & me
i'm not a very sentimental person. maybe i'm a cold, heartless bitch. maybe i just don't get attached to people cus too many have screwed me over. maybe i just don't have the attention span to stay tied to something or someone for too long. or maybe its cus i look for and find family in every aspect of my life, so i never really feel like i'm missing anything cus its all there.
i don't believe in having only one family. i mean, its true that i can only drive an unlimited number of people in my biological one, but that doesn't mean it's the only family i have.
everywhere i turn, i got family. cus when you think about it, it's really something you need - what am i supposed to do when my biological family isn't home?
i turn to my school family. or my swimming family. or my pc family. or my preschool buddies family (hard to believe we're entering our senior year/graduated already!!!) or my elementary school family. or my extended family. or my best friends'families (LOL). and the list goes on.
each family has its strengths, and weaknesses of course, but coming together they fit the mold perfectly. we look out for each other and know whats best for each other, and though we hate each other sometimes we know, deep down, we secretly still love them.
if i'm ever in a situation where i'm driving a limited number of passengers cus of my new liscense, and the p.o. busts me for breaking the '1 passenger + family' rule...... i think i'll know what i have to say......
"officer........ these people are my family. our birth certificates might not match, we might be the same race or it might be impossible for us to have been born in the same immediate family because of our age, but we ARE family. "
and hopefully the officer will understand. if he doesn't agree that the concept of family means more than those bound to us by blood or marriage, i feel sorry for him.
cus he's missing out.
i don't believe in having only one family. i mean, its true that i can only drive an unlimited number of people in my biological one, but that doesn't mean it's the only family i have.
everywhere i turn, i got family. cus when you think about it, it's really something you need - what am i supposed to do when my biological family isn't home?
i turn to my school family. or my swimming family. or my pc family. or my preschool buddies family (hard to believe we're entering our senior year/graduated already!!!) or my elementary school family. or my extended family. or my best friends'families (LOL). and the list goes on.
each family has its strengths, and weaknesses of course, but coming together they fit the mold perfectly. we look out for each other and know whats best for each other, and though we hate each other sometimes we know, deep down, we secretly still love them.
if i'm ever in a situation where i'm driving a limited number of passengers cus of my new liscense, and the p.o. busts me for breaking the '1 passenger + family' rule...... i think i'll know what i have to say......
"officer........ these people are my family. our birth certificates might not match, we might be the same race or it might be impossible for us to have been born in the same immediate family because of our age, but we ARE family. "
and hopefully the officer will understand. if he doesn't agree that the concept of family means more than those bound to us by blood or marriage, i feel sorry for him.
cus he's missing out.
Wednesday, July 28
Don't depend on others because they won't always be there for you as much as you wish for them to be.
Be independent and strong. Most importantly, be yourself.
Thursday, July 22
sweet escape
since i was young, i've always been fascinated with airports. when i was little it was all about going to grandma's/disneyland/vacation somewhere, which brought lots of excitement to my days. as i grew older, it became all about people watching and the fact the yvr/lax/yyz/lga/dtw/sea etc are pretty much gateways to the world.
it STILL captivates me every time i go to the airport. i admit i look at where all the planes are going as i'm trying to find my gate and i imagine where all the people could possibly be going. i'd walk by planes headed to montego bay and see school groups in matching T's from detroit heading on the vacation of a life time or on the plane going to hawaii wondering who was lucky enough to be heading home.
i personally can't wait to get out of the smalltown bubble i live in and explore the world. but for now......... people watching at the airport is gonna have to be a start.
it STILL captivates me every time i go to the airport. i admit i look at where all the planes are going as i'm trying to find my gate and i imagine where all the people could possibly be going. i'd walk by planes headed to montego bay and see school groups in matching T's from detroit heading on the vacation of a life time or on the plane going to hawaii wondering who was lucky enough to be heading home.
i personally can't wait to get out of the smalltown bubble i live in and explore the world. but for now......... people watching at the airport is gonna have to be a start.
Wednesday, July 21
good news, bad news
the good news:
new phone!!!!! welll iphone.... so new ipod and celluar phone and wireless device!!!!
and they took so long they gave us $100 to spend towards cases!! wooohooo
the bad news:
dropped my phone on concrete 3 hours before i buy my free case. made me yell a word that starts with a f and ends with uck (firetruck!!!!)
the good news:
most of the damage was done on the plastic i kept on my phone until i get a case.
the bad news:
pretty little white dent in the top left corner that i colored with sharpie. classy.
new phone!!!!! welll iphone.... so new ipod and celluar phone and wireless device!!!!
and they took so long they gave us $100 to spend towards cases!! wooohooo
the bad news:
dropped my phone on concrete 3 hours before i buy my free case. made me yell a word that starts with a f and ends with uck (firetruck!!!!)
the good news:
most of the damage was done on the plastic i kept on my phone until i get a case.
the bad news:
pretty little white dent in the top left corner that i colored with sharpie. classy.
Saturday, July 17
Friday, July 16
last night
for some reason, if i sleep after swim practice i ALWAYS remember my dreams. anyways, my adventures last night:
i was in this vintage store (pretty sure it was Front) on main street and bought this turquoise bike for REALLY cheap.
I started riding it around in New York city and ended up riding it into this HUGE room. It was pretty much Grand Central Station, except for way more windows, nothing in the middle/on the floor, and no ticket booths or anything that were telling when the trains were coming etc. And oh my, the PEOPLE. there were SO MANY people and i'm pretty sure i knew all of them.
so i'm biking down a random road, and all of a sudden it gets really steep. it flashes back to grand central room again and i'm biking down, dodging people, but the floor is really steep as well. i fall off my bike, walk down this weird hallway, and end up in this mall.
(weird part is i've NEVER been to a mall like this in my life, but i've dreamt about going there numerous times. the parking lot is on the second level, it's long and skinny, and there's a victoria's secret store and a kohl's on the most east tip of it. it's kinda like ala moana mall in HI if you've ever been there, but not quite....... weird tho cus i started dreaming about this place before i visited that mall.
ANYWAY....... so i go to the mall and smell perfumes in this store, then i continue down these hallways and go on this ride. it starts off as a subway, but turns into a zipper-like ride. i rode it with my friend sylvia and my friend carla and her sister(? even though she doesn't have a sister) were sitting in front of us.
As soon as the ride stops, all hell breaks loose. i run to the top of the noticeably less steep than before Grand central room and see many people i knew mysteriously died. i chase this woman who i refer to in my dream as my mom/aunt or something back to the subway ride, but i get trapped inside and have trouble getting out.
So THEN i get back to the grand central room AGAIN and all these soldiers with machine guns come barelling in and i get shot to death.
its weird because when i'm dying i can feel the pain but all i can really feel is pins and needles and my body parts falling asleep. SO then i float up to 'heaven' which ends up being the upper half of the room - and see all these floating people too. and we're literally just like, hovering in the air. i remember being slightly transparent haha!
weirdly my dreams usually end with my death. this one kept going.
i remember seeing lots of people in heaven but most distinctly my cousin stefanie who in the dream died in a car crash when she was 18 (tho she's still alive and well at 21 now).
all the people in heaven told me i had to say the final goodbye to my human body by putting it away - so i had to pick it up and put it in this coffin/idk?! that was sparkly and light purple and was pretty much just a giant pencil case.
SO then, i meet this random blond guy and we start dancing for some reason? and then he started dancing with this other girl as well who was really nice and i was really jealous. he then said we could share him and for some reason i was okay with that. HAHAHA
SO then in my dream world there is this element thing where people become ghosts or whatever so they can appear to people still living. there are still alive humans in the grand central room, and they cannot see us until our bodies materialize into the human world. so i was talking to my auntie kristie and one of the moms of someone on my swim team and we were able to have a full conversation but i asked them what of me they could see and they said only my neck. (?)
SO THEN melissa l. was still alive so me and my friends in ghost form wanted to send her a sign or something? and we started talking to her and she wanted to take a picture of us but we couldn't.
julian (who was dead) managed to capture a photo of me and melissa l. but i did not show up in said picture.
and then my mom called and woke me up.
sorry for unloading this on here, it's just that i do not remember the last time i was able to recall a dream i had so vividly.....and to be honest i was wildly entertained.
i was in this vintage store (pretty sure it was Front) on main street and bought this turquoise bike for REALLY cheap.
I started riding it around in New York city and ended up riding it into this HUGE room. It was pretty much Grand Central Station, except for way more windows, nothing in the middle/on the floor, and no ticket booths or anything that were telling when the trains were coming etc. And oh my, the PEOPLE. there were SO MANY people and i'm pretty sure i knew all of them.
so i'm biking down a random road, and all of a sudden it gets really steep. it flashes back to grand central room again and i'm biking down, dodging people, but the floor is really steep as well. i fall off my bike, walk down this weird hallway, and end up in this mall.
(weird part is i've NEVER been to a mall like this in my life, but i've dreamt about going there numerous times. the parking lot is on the second level, it's long and skinny, and there's a victoria's secret store and a kohl's on the most east tip of it. it's kinda like ala moana mall in HI if you've ever been there, but not quite....... weird tho cus i started dreaming about this place before i visited that mall.
ANYWAY....... so i go to the mall and smell perfumes in this store, then i continue down these hallways and go on this ride. it starts off as a subway, but turns into a zipper-like ride. i rode it with my friend sylvia and my friend carla and her sister(? even though she doesn't have a sister) were sitting in front of us.
As soon as the ride stops, all hell breaks loose. i run to the top of the noticeably less steep than before Grand central room and see many people i knew mysteriously died. i chase this woman who i refer to in my dream as my mom/aunt or something back to the subway ride, but i get trapped inside and have trouble getting out.
So THEN i get back to the grand central room AGAIN and all these soldiers with machine guns come barelling in and i get shot to death.
its weird because when i'm dying i can feel the pain but all i can really feel is pins and needles and my body parts falling asleep. SO then i float up to 'heaven' which ends up being the upper half of the room - and see all these floating people too. and we're literally just like, hovering in the air. i remember being slightly transparent haha!
weirdly my dreams usually end with my death. this one kept going.
i remember seeing lots of people in heaven but most distinctly my cousin stefanie who in the dream died in a car crash when she was 18 (tho she's still alive and well at 21 now).
all the people in heaven told me i had to say the final goodbye to my human body by putting it away - so i had to pick it up and put it in this coffin/idk?! that was sparkly and light purple and was pretty much just a giant pencil case.
SO then, i meet this random blond guy and we start dancing for some reason? and then he started dancing with this other girl as well who was really nice and i was really jealous. he then said we could share him and for some reason i was okay with that. HAHAHA
SO then in my dream world there is this element thing where people become ghosts or whatever so they can appear to people still living. there are still alive humans in the grand central room, and they cannot see us until our bodies materialize into the human world. so i was talking to my auntie kristie and one of the moms of someone on my swim team and we were able to have a full conversation but i asked them what of me they could see and they said only my neck. (?)
SO THEN melissa l. was still alive so me and my friends in ghost form wanted to send her a sign or something? and we started talking to her and she wanted to take a picture of us but we couldn't.
julian (who was dead) managed to capture a photo of me and melissa l. but i did not show up in said picture.
and then my mom called and woke me up.
sorry for unloading this on here, it's just that i do not remember the last time i was able to recall a dream i had so vividly.....and to be honest i was wildly entertained.
Wednesday, July 14
sunshine
Today was one of those days. no, not one of THOSE days. a good day. one of those days that only happen once every few months - possibly with the full moon? the changing of the tides? the changing of justin bieber's voice? who knows!! what matters is that it was one of those fantastic-fall-asleep-smiling days.
"and it was good"
the kinda day that makes you say........ damn, i'm happy to be alive.
the one where you wake up with your alarm so you don't feel any fatigue, ace your morning exercise routine, spend the day with a friend and get to the pool for a solid swim practice.
the one where you decide to buy ice cream to celebrate the good day, and you see that its half the price you usually pay.
one of those days that are just roll-in-the-grass-do-a-happy-dance-in-the-sunshine fabulous.
what keeps me going on the days where when i feel the opposite of rolling the the grass happy dancing in the sunshine fabulous are days like today - the fact that the promise of a better tomorrow is looming in the distance creates enough positive energy to grab the corners of my lips and turn that frown upside down.
"and it was good"
the kinda day that makes you say........ damn, i'm happy to be alive.
the one where you wake up with your alarm so you don't feel any fatigue, ace your morning exercise routine, spend the day with a friend and get to the pool for a solid swim practice.
the one where you decide to buy ice cream to celebrate the good day, and you see that its half the price you usually pay.
one of those days that are just roll-in-the-grass-do-a-happy-dance-in-the-sunshine fabulous.
what keeps me going on the days where when i feel the opposite of rolling the the grass happy dancing in the sunshine fabulous are days like today - the fact that the promise of a better tomorrow is looming in the distance creates enough positive energy to grab the corners of my lips and turn that frown upside down.
Saturday, July 10
someone told me
even tho its in french, carla bruni's voice is so smooth. i fricken am addicted to this song and i don't fully understand it.
recently experienced a rediscovery of the killers. masterminds of the time man, for reals.
Friday, July 9
Tuesday, July 6
after the fall
in social studies this year we learned aboiut the laissez-faire approach - in the english language known as 'let be'. tho it refers to the government, i think to a certain degree it can also be applied to friendships. not in the way where neglect is present, but in the way we treat our friends....... esp our girls.
u love your friends, right? you want the best for them, right? so how the hell can you just stand there and watch as your friend's heart gets ready to be ripped to pieces as you see that guy take it out of her chest cavity and run it thru a paper shredder (metaphorically) in front of your own eyes?!?!!!!
but then its a point where u gotta let them experience your tough love. whether you like it or not, u gotta face the facts that you're not always gonna be there to prevent these horrible things - getting led on, cheated on, used, etc- from happening to your girls (or boys for that matter). you know how they say 'give a man to fish, feed him for a day, teach a man to fish, feed him for a lifetime'? same applies.
theres a difference between feeding ur friend and teaching ur friend. the best friends may be the ones that let life happen to their girls and boys, but remember..... the best friends are also the ones who are waiting in the wings with the ben and jerrys, prepared to stay up all night to comfort them in their time of need AFTER the lesson is learned.
it's like they're on a cliff in the middle of the ocean. they're gonna fall off eventually..... even if you try to prevent it, as much as you love them..... it's gonna happen. maybe when you sleep. maybe when you sneeze. you've just gotta face the facts that it's gonna happen.
so the question is........ are you gonna be there for them while they're recovering from that inevitable fall, or are you gonna be to busy kicking yourself for preventing them from learning the inevitable lesson that you fail to realize that AFTER the fall is when they need u the most?
u love your friends, right? you want the best for them, right? so how the hell can you just stand there and watch as your friend's heart gets ready to be ripped to pieces as you see that guy take it out of her chest cavity and run it thru a paper shredder (metaphorically) in front of your own eyes?!?!!!!
but then its a point where u gotta let them experience your tough love. whether you like it or not, u gotta face the facts that you're not always gonna be there to prevent these horrible things - getting led on, cheated on, used, etc- from happening to your girls (or boys for that matter). you know how they say 'give a man to fish, feed him for a day, teach a man to fish, feed him for a lifetime'? same applies.
theres a difference between feeding ur friend and teaching ur friend. the best friends may be the ones that let life happen to their girls and boys, but remember..... the best friends are also the ones who are waiting in the wings with the ben and jerrys, prepared to stay up all night to comfort them in their time of need AFTER the lesson is learned.
it's like they're on a cliff in the middle of the ocean. they're gonna fall off eventually..... even if you try to prevent it, as much as you love them..... it's gonna happen. maybe when you sleep. maybe when you sneeze. you've just gotta face the facts that it's gonna happen.
so the question is........ are you gonna be there for them while they're recovering from that inevitable fall, or are you gonna be to busy kicking yourself for preventing them from learning the inevitable lesson that you fail to realize that AFTER the fall is when they need u the most?
Monday, July 5
concrete jungle where dreams are made oh
miss this city. last summer, i fell in love....... with a city that never sleeps. every morning i wake up and miss the sounds, the busy-ness, the sophistication. i miss the fact that in that city you can walk down the street and see a celebrity performing in concert for the today show (actually happened). i miss times square. i miss the broadway shows....... they're mind-blowing. i miss the lights. i miss the pretzel stands on every corner. i miss the amazing food.... i fell in love with turkish food on that trip and haven't been able to find any since. i had the best avocado sandwich in the world in this cafe in harlem that served $1 mimosas at lunchtime... what's not to like??!!
the day i left, i promised myself i'd be back many times. and trust me, i will be back..... and eventually to stay.
? summer
can currently be found m.i.a.
find me soaking up some sun, toes in the sand, sippin cool drinks or enjoying the fresh scent of freshly cut watermelon.
its summertime.................... time to finally enjoy that lemonade u made when life gave u lemons.
find me soaking up some sun, toes in the sand, sippin cool drinks or enjoying the fresh scent of freshly cut watermelon.
its summertime.................... time to finally enjoy that lemonade u made when life gave u lemons.
Saturday, July 3
epoxy
Ever heard of epoxy glue??? It's that super strong stuff that sticks to pretty much anything. As a child, whenever the handle on the cooking spoon snapped, a heel came off a shoe, or a piece came off a toy, the epoxy would always be the first thing there.It works so good because it's actually a super intense chemical reaction, so intense that the glue is in two seperate parts and you mix it yourself. So while the two parts seperately don't really stick to anything, mix them together and stick them to the right surface and it won't come off of anything. (and speaking from personal experience...... i mean anything..
figured out today that i myself can relate to epoxy glue. I don't really get attached to people or things easily, if at all....... but all it takes is the right combination and it becomes extremely hard to let go.
Thursday, July 1
726. IF YOU REALLY THOUGHT THAT PICTURE WAS BAD, UGLY, OR GROSS, YOU WOULD NOT HAVE UPLOADED IT. STOP FISHING FOR COMPLIMENTS.
tidbit of wisdom via gotwisdom.tumblr.com
As much as I like looking at and putting pictures on facebook, I absolutely cannot STAND when people post a pic in an album/profile picture and put 'eww' or 'gross' as the caption.
It's definitely understandable if a friend posts it. I'm pretty much the most unphotogenic person in the world, so when I receive a tagged picture notification my first action is to 'untag' before even looking at it, followed by a comment on the pic saying "DELETE". HAHA
But that aside.................. please. post all the pictures of yourself you want. Heck, make a collage or something and post it on my wall if you want. Just don't post a picture of yourself that you and I both know is a ravishingly beautiful photo of you and put "gross" or "ugly" or "disgusting" as the caption. Cus really...................... If it was that ugly or gross or disgusting, that picture's ass would be in your recycle bin before you even THOUGHT about putting it on facebook for a millesecond.
This has been a public service announcement.
As much as I like looking at and putting pictures on facebook, I absolutely cannot STAND when people post a pic in an album/profile picture and put 'eww' or 'gross' as the caption.
It's definitely understandable if a friend posts it. I'm pretty much the most unphotogenic person in the world, so when I receive a tagged picture notification my first action is to 'untag' before even looking at it, followed by a comment on the pic saying "DELETE". HAHA
But that aside.................. please. post all the pictures of yourself you want. Heck, make a collage or something and post it on my wall if you want. Just don't post a picture of yourself that you and I both know is a ravishingly beautiful photo of you and put "gross" or "ugly" or "disgusting" as the caption. Cus really...................... If it was that ugly or gross or disgusting, that picture's ass would be in your recycle bin before you even THOUGHT about putting it on facebook for a millesecond.
This has been a public service announcement.
Monday, June 28
summer dayz
My favourite summer EVER was the summer of 2008. It's when I really found my friends. It was the summer of new things, new emotions, new friends, new everything.
Last summer wasn't as great as summer 08........ for a variety of reasons. I was basically MIA from my school friends, my grandpa died, and it was productive in spending about 3/4 of it becoming a lifeguard. The true highlight of that summer was my nyc trip, and of course the very last day of summer spent with my friends of many years.
This summer, I resolve to be extremely productive. Not in the work sense, per se, but more in maintaining my relationshps with other people and developing and exploring new skills and talents for myself. I want to build an ultimate wardrobe for the school year, make use of my canvas and oil paints, sketch a LOT, seal in my musical taste (everyone i know's itunes library puts mine to SHAME) and just try to get out of the house every day.
Here we go.
Last summer wasn't as great as summer 08........ for a variety of reasons. I was basically MIA from my school friends, my grandpa died, and it was productive in spending about 3/4 of it becoming a lifeguard. The true highlight of that summer was my nyc trip, and of course the very last day of summer spent with my friends of many years.
This summer, I resolve to be extremely productive. Not in the work sense, per se, but more in maintaining my relationshps with other people and developing and exploring new skills and talents for myself. I want to build an ultimate wardrobe for the school year, make use of my canvas and oil paints, sketch a LOT, seal in my musical taste (everyone i know's itunes library puts mine to SHAME) and just try to get out of the house every day.
Here we go.
Saturday, June 26
Thursday, June 24
summer jammin
i'm not usually one to listen to pop music anymore but ALL THESE SUMMER SONGS ARE RIDICULOUSLY CATCHY!!!
Wednesday, June 23
celebrity sighting #2
On the bus with friends from kits beach yesterday and saw this girl on the #22!!!!
I didn't recognize her but my friends, who watched Canada's next top model did. And heeey she's a celebrity right? :) I can cross that off my list now!!!
What struck me the most about her wasn't her beauty.... but also the fact that she was extremely nice!
She DEFINITELY looks different from her studio shots on the website than in real life..... but if you ask me...... though maybe not as perfect looking, she's just as, if not more, beautiful.
I didn't recognize her but my friends, who watched Canada's next top model did. And heeey she's a celebrity right? :) I can cross that off my list now!!!
What struck me the most about her wasn't her beauty.... but also the fact that she was extremely nice!
She DEFINITELY looks different from her studio shots on the website than in real life..... but if you ask me...... though maybe not as perfect looking, she's just as, if not more, beautiful.
Friday, June 18
different city every night
travie mccoy has the most beautiful voice ever!!!!!!!! (besides john legend).
wish i could sing.
and just discovered this guy WHO WROTE HIS OWN VERSES!!!!!! <3333
Thursday, June 17
because quotes about swimming can apply to everyone's lives
“For myself, losing is not coming second. It’s getting out of the water knowing you could have done better. For myself, I have won every race I’ve been in.”
Ian Thorpe
"I am not going to allow myself not to perform well just because I don't feel well. I am bulletproof to the extent that a lot of things can be thrown at me, but it's about how much I am prepared to let them affect me".
Ian Thorpe
Ian Thorpe
"I am not going to allow myself not to perform well just because I don't feel well. I am bulletproof to the extent that a lot of things can be thrown at me, but it's about how much I am prepared to let them affect me".
Ian Thorpe
Sunday, June 13
as of late
study study study study.
pretend its summer for an hour or two
study study study
swim swim study swim swim swim
work
study study study
this summer/swim season/report card better be REALLY GOOD
more intelligent post later......... i'm saving up all my creative energy for the english exam tomorrow.
pretend its summer for an hour or two
study study study
swim swim study swim swim swim
work
study study study
this summer/swim season/report card better be REALLY GOOD
more intelligent post later......... i'm saving up all my creative energy for the english exam tomorrow.
Thursday, June 10
another one of those beauty reviews
I'm not one to write beauty review articles but this one i couldn't pass up the chance.............
bare escentuals prime time oil control primer
must say........ I never really hopped on the primer bandwagon until now. with the warm weather coming along, i must say i have the shiniest/grossest/oiliest skin in the WORLD.......... meaning breakouts, melted makeup, etccccc
so i go to sephora and am looking around and i find the "best of" primers and stuff. and this one stands out. oil control? whaaaaaat I definitely need that, i thought to myself, and headed to the cash register and handed over my $29.09 (incl tax) semi-reluctantly.
Needless to say, I'm not dissapointed. I've tried EVERYTHING to make my skin less oily. I've gone the benzyl peroxide 5 + % route, the granola route (HELLO baking soda and toothpaste face masks @ night), the makeup route (resulting in layers upon layers upon layers of cakefaced-ness), the bandaid route (meaning i buy those $6 oily face sheets) and this has been BY FAR the best solution.
I used to use those clean n clear sheets multiple times daily....... like at least 1 or 2 per day....... and since I've started using this primer, I've only used 1 or 2 IN TOTAL!!! (and i bought this like 2 weeks ago).
So now you've got a happy girl with happier skin.
Ahhh, the wonders of modern science.
bare escentuals prime time oil control primer
must say........ I never really hopped on the primer bandwagon until now. with the warm weather coming along, i must say i have the shiniest/grossest/oiliest skin in the WORLD.......... meaning breakouts, melted makeup, etccccc
so i go to sephora and am looking around and i find the "best of" primers and stuff. and this one stands out. oil control? whaaaaaat I definitely need that, i thought to myself, and headed to the cash register and handed over my $29.09 (incl tax) semi-reluctantly.
Needless to say, I'm not dissapointed. I've tried EVERYTHING to make my skin less oily. I've gone the benzyl peroxide 5 + % route, the granola route (HELLO baking soda and toothpaste face masks @ night), the makeup route (resulting in layers upon layers upon layers of cakefaced-ness), the bandaid route (meaning i buy those $6 oily face sheets) and this has been BY FAR the best solution.
I used to use those clean n clear sheets multiple times daily....... like at least 1 or 2 per day....... and since I've started using this primer, I've only used 1 or 2 IN TOTAL!!! (and i bought this like 2 weeks ago).
So now you've got a happy girl with happier skin.
Ahhh, the wonders of modern science.
Wednesday, June 9
"the year is yours"
I've said it a million times before, but I'll say it again : the year FLEW BY!!!!!
Hard to believe that in 3 months (-2 days) today I'll be entering grade 12 with 99 (give or take) wonderful people. It's our year guys, let's do it. GRAD XI
But for now.........................
congratulations to the grads of 2010!!! You will be missed!
Hard to believe that in 3 months (-2 days) today I'll be entering grade 12 with 99 (give or take) wonderful people. It's our year guys, let's do it. GRAD XI
But for now.........................
congratulations to the grads of 2010!!! You will be missed!
Thursday, June 3
"we accept the love we think we deserve"
"Whatever amount you put into something is what you get out of it." Never have I heard a phrase in which I could agree AND disagree with more.
The agree side: Effort always counts for something. You want to win the game? You wanna learn how to dunk/do a triple axel/swim a 29sec 50 free? You gotta train your ass of for it. Cause you're not going to get there simply with luck and/or talent. Someone out there is always gonna be more talented than you, so it's up to you to work harder than anyone else because THAT is something you CAN control. Even in retreats, school, et cetera, the amount of work/time/effort you put into something is almost always reciprocated. It's common knowledge for the most part.
The disagree side: I've been in points in my life when the getting something out of the effort you put in is complete and utter BS!!!!! No matter how hard I try to be good at basketball, I'll never be as good as the 6'2 girl who works as hard as me just cause she has the natural advantage. Time and time again, I've put too much effort/time/$/thought into relationships with people in my life and it definitely doesn't come back to me the way I want it to.
The bottom line: No matter how much time/effort/$/etc you put into something, you need to evaluate for YOURSELF what you think you deserve. Though God tries his best, He's got 6 billion people to watch over, and its easy to overlook people, esp. when they don't look out for themselves.
So when something amazing happens to you, don't be afraid to be happy. If you worked for it, if you spent time thinking about it, ride the high. Acknowledge you deserve it, otherwise it'll be gone in a snap and you'll be stuck settling for much less than you really should.
Wednesday, June 2
high society
Amazing week, beautiful people, good company. Can't get better than this. Unbelieveably excited for senior year.
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